"God is so good, God is so good, God is so good, is so good to me."
yes, GOd is so good He never leave me just there, not even one day and i'm feeling so blessed and loved by Him since the beginning of the year than ever. I thank God for a new year!! a new life, another chance where I can shine for the Lord!!
Wednesday, January 18, 2006
Sunday, January 15, 2006
Jesus
"In our Lord Jesus Christ, there was:
meekness without weakness;
tenderness without feebleness;
firmness without coarseness;
love without sentimentality;
holiness without self-righteousness;
lowliness without lowness;
truth without error;
enthusiasm without fanaticism;
passion without prejudice;
carefreness without carelessness;
service without servility;
confidence without egoism;
judgement without harshness;
seriousness without gloominess;
mercy without softness."
meekness without weakness;
tenderness without feebleness;
firmness without coarseness;
love without sentimentality;
holiness without self-righteousness;
lowliness without lowness;
truth without error;
enthusiasm without fanaticism;
passion without prejudice;
carefreness without carelessness;
service without servility;
confidence without egoism;
judgement without harshness;
seriousness without gloominess;
mercy without softness."
Tuesday, January 10, 2006
new skin
hey!!! happy new year! how do you like my new skin?? finally got the blog done cos i dont really like the previous one. too plain for my taste. so haha. didnt update. =) this one just lack audio. will work on it. =)
ok, i feel fat, look fat and AM fat!! that's like so sad case. =( could feel fats wobbling every action i do!! =( I want to jian fei!!
ok, i feel fat, look fat and AM fat!! that's like so sad case. =( could feel fats wobbling every action i do!! =( I want to jian fei!!
Tuesday, December 20, 2005
europe
woo!! just came back from a 15 days trip to europe and one word --amazing--. thank God for the people in the tour, for every 'coincidence' there is, that a romance tour ended up to be a youthful one, with wonderfully open people around. haha. well, i'm so so tired i think i might just blog about it again next week cos i'll be off to korea again TONIGHT!!! =)
take care and God bless peeps!!
take care and God bless peeps!!
Thursday, November 17, 2005
TAG
had my first attchment this week. to the singapore cancer society. the first day was nothing much really. just a brief intro to the society, what they do and stuff. they didnt really have anything for us to do, afterall we're just job shadowing. after a light snack was the support group "New Voice Club" for the survivors of cancer of the larynx who had their voice box removed. they're all male elderly and they are very kind and friendly. and all of them kept on telling us to tell our friends not to smoke, later will kena that illness. they said that when they were smoking,t hey also didnt think that they will be so unlucky to get it but it slowly eats away their body. it was quite interesting for me because it's the first time i see people who breathe through that hole in their chest and could not talk. well, not so much of sympathy because at least they survived. and they are doing pretty well themselves. but i was quite touched with their warmness and self-confidence. as in they are not shy about it or what, they even showed us the hole!! and kept on explainign how they talk. we knocked off at 2pm instead of the actual 4pm cos they really nothing for us to do.
day 2 was so much better. we were attached to the finance department and at least they let us help out a bit. we did the receipts, labels and prepared the envelopes for the donor base and stuff like that. though it does not really need a lot of brain, at least we helped out in a bit. after lunch we went to the fund raising dept to help them cut that thing off the flag day bags. we cut 3 humongous rack and 5 boxes!! a lot a lot. collected a lot of money inside. haha. but well, our integrity only allow us to return to the society. =) we actually slacked a bit (one hour) and played table soccer and without notice, it's 3.30pm!! haha. a fruitful day, with a sense of satisfaction of use.
day 3 we were attached to the fund raising dept. continued with the bags but at least in the morning they told us what they do, all the projects, small to big (falg days to charity shows). quite interesting, learnt something new. =) after lunch we just do some re-shelving for the library. at first we thought we're done and could go up to watch the charity show but well, they asked us to check the book int he database 1 by 1!! haha. well, at least something new. man, but they gave us so so much food. i thought i was going to burst. at first was the homenurse giving us some snacks and then we went for lunch and i ate more than i normally do, then before we went home they bought for us some muffins, brownies, pies from Au Chocolat. very nice and thoughtful of them huh??
I think hmm. it's a nice experience and good exposure to the whole working system. =) thank God for that. but i must start on my holiday homework and also revise my year 1 work!! Help me, God?? =)
16 more days to Europe!!
day 2 was so much better. we were attached to the finance department and at least they let us help out a bit. we did the receipts, labels and prepared the envelopes for the donor base and stuff like that. though it does not really need a lot of brain, at least we helped out in a bit. after lunch we went to the fund raising dept to help them cut that thing off the flag day bags. we cut 3 humongous rack and 5 boxes!! a lot a lot. collected a lot of money inside. haha. but well, our integrity only allow us to return to the society. =) we actually slacked a bit (one hour) and played table soccer and without notice, it's 3.30pm!! haha. a fruitful day, with a sense of satisfaction of use.
day 3 we were attached to the fund raising dept. continued with the bags but at least in the morning they told us what they do, all the projects, small to big (falg days to charity shows). quite interesting, learnt something new. =) after lunch we just do some re-shelving for the library. at first we thought we're done and could go up to watch the charity show but well, they asked us to check the book int he database 1 by 1!! haha. well, at least something new. man, but they gave us so so much food. i thought i was going to burst. at first was the homenurse giving us some snacks and then we went for lunch and i ate more than i normally do, then before we went home they bought for us some muffins, brownies, pies from Au Chocolat. very nice and thoughtful of them huh??
I think hmm. it's a nice experience and good exposure to the whole working system. =) thank God for that. but i must start on my holiday homework and also revise my year 1 work!! Help me, God?? =)
16 more days to Europe!!
Wednesday, November 16, 2005
hmm..
been such a looong time since i last blogged huh?? well, i can say that quite a lot of things are happening right now. haha. so much that i dont know which one to write and what not to.
firstly, i tried to play golf!! haha. though i had muscle ache the next day, all in all, it's a nice game and with a golf set from uncle john, I have to take it up. but well, no regrets. =)
Last sun we had monopoly game where we had to run around, completing task, TRYING TO buy lands and win more money. We took our own sweet time to the first stop and though we lost the game, we still managed to get hold of the land. =) then we landed on electric company, pay $50 and school fees $200. See how unlucky we are. haha. well, then it just went on and we somehow decided to move even slower from stations to stations to reduce our rentals. haha. you can say that we are cunning but oh well, do you want to keep on paying money?? haha. but it went okay after all.
THere's also this period when i felt that my heart was so cold and heart, so untouchable, i think because of the disappointment of the promos, but oh praise God, everything is over and I am as hungry as ever!! =) For you guys who are feeling that you're drawing away from His presence, I tell you- I know that you dont like the feeling and want to come back, for the Spirit is willing but the flesh is weak. but oh praise God, our God is a God who can overcome our flesh!! =) Just tell Him that you need Him to help you and He will.
man, I feel so so fat. like a pig. I eat non-stop. I dont know why but how come I cant control myself? =( God hwlp me to control my own desire to eat. I feel so so blubbery. like everytime i move, my fats shake. hahaa. maybe I'm imagining things but ai, why I keep on eating and thinking of food??!! =(
oh yay!! 17 days to baptism and 18 days to europe with my dears!! =)
firstly, i tried to play golf!! haha. though i had muscle ache the next day, all in all, it's a nice game and with a golf set from uncle john, I have to take it up. but well, no regrets. =)
Last sun we had monopoly game where we had to run around, completing task, TRYING TO buy lands and win more money. We took our own sweet time to the first stop and though we lost the game, we still managed to get hold of the land. =) then we landed on electric company, pay $50 and school fees $200. See how unlucky we are. haha. well, then it just went on and we somehow decided to move even slower from stations to stations to reduce our rentals. haha. you can say that we are cunning but oh well, do you want to keep on paying money?? haha. but it went okay after all.
THere's also this period when i felt that my heart was so cold and heart, so untouchable, i think because of the disappointment of the promos, but oh praise God, everything is over and I am as hungry as ever!! =) For you guys who are feeling that you're drawing away from His presence, I tell you- I know that you dont like the feeling and want to come back, for the Spirit is willing but the flesh is weak. but oh praise God, our God is a God who can overcome our flesh!! =) Just tell Him that you need Him to help you and He will.
man, I feel so so fat. like a pig. I eat non-stop. I dont know why but how come I cant control myself? =( God hwlp me to control my own desire to eat. I feel so so blubbery. like everytime i move, my fats shake. hahaa. maybe I'm imagining things but ai, why I keep on eating and thinking of food??!! =(
oh yay!! 17 days to baptism and 18 days to europe with my dears!! =)
Tuesday, October 18, 2005
results
ok, my promo results has just been out and i did so super badly. man, what am I doing here? I can just forget about everything that i wanted to do. argh, i'm very frustrated with myself. what have i been doing? argh.
Tuesday, October 11, 2005
Promos over!!
ok, promos's officially over, and i'm so sian!! got nothing to do!! miss so many ppl so much!! miss everything so much!! well, i'm still happy with my alr blessed life. =P while waiting for the results, i have ultimate fith that as long as i put my papers and faith in his hands, he can make it big yea? so you guys no worries too!! for God's great and He'll never forsake us, as long as we reach out for His help. He's always there dears. =P woohoo~~ loving my life, tho i got nth to do. hahaa
Sunday, September 25, 2005
wasting some cash
ok, i just wasted a stash of money for being hospitalised for nothing. haha. it all happened on fri when i woke up with a very bad tummy ache. it's not the normal gastric or cramp kind. i couldnt even bend due to the pain, but well, i still had to go to school cos got chem spa. after chem spa i went to see the doctor.
cos the pain is at the left bottom of the abdomen, where the appendix is, i'm suspoected to have appendicitis. SUSPECTED. alright, so i went for blood test, urine test. then they were afraid that the pain will get worse so they decided to put me under observation in the hospital for a day. then after that i went for CT scan. drank two cups of dont know what liquid, and it tasting horrible. super bad, felt like puking when i drank it- i think it's some radioactive chemical? then got another injection. ;(
after the admission stuff into the ward is done, i went inside and in no time, the doctor came in with the CT scan results. it doesnt show that i got appendicitis, and i was like, oh, so what am i doing here? :( well, still under observation? cos they say some realy early stages of appendicitis cant be shown on CT scan. then they put me on drip on antibiotics. haha. it felt quite weird to have a very small pipe inserted to my hand. it was really nothing la.
oh oh, shao and linx came and i was so shocked! cos i didnt tell them my room number, but at least dora told me before hand. haha. thanks babes! love you guys loads. =P
well so yea, what an experience huh? to get hospialised for nothing. even the doctors say that they are just being too overly cautious. xiao ti da zuo. haha. one thing good is that i got nothing to do except to study there cos my mom went back home for cell group and my phone batt was almost flat. haha. so i just study!!
I still thank God that He has protected me thus far from all illnesses and pain for i knoe that by His stripes my pain is taken away. =P
Promos starting this fri! jia you!! shine for God and glorify Him. =P let His word and promise come to pass!!
cos the pain is at the left bottom of the abdomen, where the appendix is, i'm suspoected to have appendicitis. SUSPECTED. alright, so i went for blood test, urine test. then they were afraid that the pain will get worse so they decided to put me under observation in the hospital for a day. then after that i went for CT scan. drank two cups of dont know what liquid, and it tasting horrible. super bad, felt like puking when i drank it- i think it's some radioactive chemical? then got another injection. ;(
after the admission stuff into the ward is done, i went inside and in no time, the doctor came in with the CT scan results. it doesnt show that i got appendicitis, and i was like, oh, so what am i doing here? :( well, still under observation? cos they say some realy early stages of appendicitis cant be shown on CT scan. then they put me on drip on antibiotics. haha. it felt quite weird to have a very small pipe inserted to my hand. it was really nothing la.
oh oh, shao and linx came and i was so shocked! cos i didnt tell them my room number, but at least dora told me before hand. haha. thanks babes! love you guys loads. =P
well so yea, what an experience huh? to get hospialised for nothing. even the doctors say that they are just being too overly cautious. xiao ti da zuo. haha. one thing good is that i got nothing to do except to study there cos my mom went back home for cell group and my phone batt was almost flat. haha. so i just study!!
I still thank God that He has protected me thus far from all illnesses and pain for i knoe that by His stripes my pain is taken away. =P
Promos starting this fri! jia you!! shine for God and glorify Him. =P let His word and promise come to pass!!
Monday, September 05, 2005
haha.
haha. well, i really really love life. =P but well, i still cant deny the fact that promos is coming in 24 days!! and i barely started my revision! well oh well. actually i wanted to start on the friday of 27th, but was like making boonkiat's crown and cake, so i just ended up doing my tutorials and sleeping at 3! man.. then the next morning watch charlie again, for the third time with sally then went for lunch. after cell i was watching hilda play badminton with pastor. some people just dont LOOk like they can play but they can!! like hilda. haha. when she plays, she's still like tai-tai, ever so demure and gentle but no joke, she's quite good. hehe. then the next day got the boonkiat thing lo, and just do tutorials and SOME chem mcq. oh, i pon-ed school on tue and wed and it wasnt productive at all! on tue i went to buy my new phone lo, as some of you know that my phone died after struggling in the swimming pool. however, it is still found faithful to its master when it survived just for me to transfer my contacts to SIM card. Thank God! He always listens to my prayers, I simply love Him!! and He creates miracles that are unthinkable. haha. so it's true that His ways are higher than our ways and His thoughts are higher than our thoughts. =P
another day spent not studying when i went out with boonkiat to buy his shoe. why am I such a procrastinator? I can never find the self-discipline to study! who can help me but God? then on wed i basically just practised piano again and again cos i was so nervous abt piano exam.
on thursday we had bible study and since it's teachers' day, we sang the song 4L wrote for teachers' day 2003 tot he tune of dong jia by JJ but changed lyrics to pastor. haha. was very satisfied and proud of the class!! yay! that the song's still so meaningful!! haha. 4L rocks to the core man!! =P so glad that the people liked the song too. hahaha.
this is the day!! my piano exam! i was so nervous that i played some parts of each piece wrongly, i just dont know why, the parts which i never play wrongly was a bit wrong. but still, i'm trusting GOd for everything cos i believe that it can be another time where His grace can be shown upon me and that He can turn my weakness into strengths as long as I put my trust in Him. I always thank GOd for being there for me, giving me the support. i really dont know what i'll do without Him.
on friday night i went for the 3D2N cruise to nowhere. haha. so angry with myself. i'm supposed to go there to study cos i tot that there won't be anything going on, no activity so i can really get off all distractions and study on the deck. what did i end up doing? SINGING KARAOKE and EATING!!! i eat and eat and eat NON-STOP till i feel so so so so fat now. think i gained like 1 or 2 kg la! argh! i feel like puking when i see food, but once i eat, haha. i'll not stop. am i turning into some glutton or what? =(
argh!! study study i must study!! but will I? dont care. i MUST! God, can YOu give me the revelation and drive that i'm studying for YOu?? =P I wanna study! i shall punish myself terribly if i continue to be so slack! yes, i will!
another day spent not studying when i went out with boonkiat to buy his shoe. why am I such a procrastinator? I can never find the self-discipline to study! who can help me but God? then on wed i basically just practised piano again and again cos i was so nervous abt piano exam.
on thursday we had bible study and since it's teachers' day, we sang the song 4L wrote for teachers' day 2003 tot he tune of dong jia by JJ but changed lyrics to pastor. haha. was very satisfied and proud of the class!! yay! that the song's still so meaningful!! haha. 4L rocks to the core man!! =P so glad that the people liked the song too. hahaha.
this is the day!! my piano exam! i was so nervous that i played some parts of each piece wrongly, i just dont know why, the parts which i never play wrongly was a bit wrong. but still, i'm trusting GOd for everything cos i believe that it can be another time where His grace can be shown upon me and that He can turn my weakness into strengths as long as I put my trust in Him. I always thank GOd for being there for me, giving me the support. i really dont know what i'll do without Him.
on friday night i went for the 3D2N cruise to nowhere. haha. so angry with myself. i'm supposed to go there to study cos i tot that there won't be anything going on, no activity so i can really get off all distractions and study on the deck. what did i end up doing? SINGING KARAOKE and EATING!!! i eat and eat and eat NON-STOP till i feel so so so so fat now. think i gained like 1 or 2 kg la! argh! i feel like puking when i see food, but once i eat, haha. i'll not stop. am i turning into some glutton or what? =(
argh!! study study i must study!! but will I? dont care. i MUST! God, can YOu give me the revelation and drive that i'm studying for YOu?? =P I wanna study! i shall punish myself terribly if i continue to be so slack! yes, i will!
Monday, August 29, 2005
lovin' everything
well, you may think that i'm mad that i can be so low and get so high suddenly!! haha. yeah, I am high! loving my life so much! everything has been going on quite well. because yea yea, i finally opened up to sophie and it felt GOOD! haha. felt so good. everything is also working out very well! i guess last time is because i think too much that i am so upset over my whole life. but now, i'm refreshed once again, renewed, with the presence of God back into my life. i Just feel so so excited for Him! yeah man! WooHoo~
hahaha... my piano exam is in 1 week's time! i'm not very ready but i have practised much more in this week than the past 1 year! haha. not that i pactise a lot, just that i do not practise at all last time. hahah. yeah yeah, so it's also getting better. i'm just worried whether i'll be too nervous on that day itself. well, for this i guess no one except God knows the answer. I really need to get His strength and peace down into my life orh~! hehe. if not i'll have mind block and break down there. haha. well, but praise GOd, He has brought me this far! yay! and He loves me, and you too, for who we are and not what we do. hehe.He's always there for us. it's just a matter whether we go and reach out to Him and ask for His help. well, He loves everyone-- even the non-Christians so if you guys got any problems that you cant solve, just pray to JEsus and be prepared to see miracles. well, of course you have to believe that He can help. anyway no harm trying right. =P
yeah man, life does rock! and off i go to prepare for VC concert and mug for promos! I want to get at least a C5 for GP! and pass bio! woo~~ studying for God.
hahaha... my piano exam is in 1 week's time! i'm not very ready but i have practised much more in this week than the past 1 year! haha. not that i pactise a lot, just that i do not practise at all last time. hahah. yeah yeah, so it's also getting better. i'm just worried whether i'll be too nervous on that day itself. well, for this i guess no one except God knows the answer. I really need to get His strength and peace down into my life orh~! hehe. if not i'll have mind block and break down there. haha. well, but praise GOd, He has brought me this far! yay! and He loves me, and you too, for who we are and not what we do. hehe.He's always there for us. it's just a matter whether we go and reach out to Him and ask for His help. well, He loves everyone-- even the non-Christians so if you guys got any problems that you cant solve, just pray to JEsus and be prepared to see miracles. well, of course you have to believe that He can help. anyway no harm trying right. =P
yeah man, life does rock! and off i go to prepare for VC concert and mug for promos! I want to get at least a C5 for GP! and pass bio! woo~~ studying for God.
Wednesday, August 17, 2005
hate this.
man, i really really hate this fake life. just trying to make everything seem alright when that thing is not alright. well, though i know that when that thing's not right, everything wont be. but argh, why? i want to make it right, have been wanting for so long, but i never get down to getting it right. argh, God, why is it like that? i really don want to lead this life with dry spiritual routines and duty but i want to do this because i love You. God, can I? arh! Devil! stop procrastinating in me! well, finally i sort of started doing it in my room just now, felt so super bad to Him. but yea, i wont deny that it's always because of my laziness. i know i dont need to be fake in front of Him, cos He's my big daddy up there right. feel so fake. been so fake. when can i end this fake life? i know the answer-- but how am I going to do it? God, i want to, you know that, but am i willing to? i want to, but will i do it? argh!!! i cant discipline myself! argh!! God, You really got to work in me for this, and help me!!
piano exam is coming. it dawned on me today when i was talking to mingtse about it. it's 2 weeks away!! ok, though it's only grade 5, but i only started piano like 4 yrs ago and i stopped for 2 1/2 years. and last yr when i started again was like O level so didnt do anything much. and i was so lazy. never practise at all. once again due to bad self discipline. VERY BAD! ok, today i felt so bad that i went home and practised for 1 1/2 hours, but is it too late? i know that even if it's too late, it's better than not practising, but still, God, i want to pass this exam. looking at my standard now, i'll fail for sure- my fingers are super not stable. GOd, how? You must help to keep me focus and be able to concentrate in everything that I do.
-------ONLY FOR THE LORD----------
Dear Lord Jesus, I thank You so much for giving me this precious life that I should never waste every single day. Lord, I just pray that your presence will be so vivid in my life, that i cant live one day without your presence. lord, i just pray that you'll be able to help me fulfil this burden in my heart, to find back the first love. lord, i really really want to do that, and i want to stop this dry religious duty and routine and want to get back to when i first start loving you, worshipping you and serving you just for the sake of you only, cos i love you. lord, i pray that i will have a breakthrough in my spiritual life. lord, i know that you know what i'm thinking and i believe that lord, you'll help me along. lord, i pray that that you'll just pour your mercy and grace upon me so that i can continue this life to be a blessing to the people around me, and i pray you'll give me the unconditional love so that i can love the people around me, for i know that you love them. lord, i pray that you'll help me to remain focus and be able to concentrate in everything i do so that i can get back on the right track with you again. lord, i want to lead this life as a worship to you. i want to just lie flat on the ground, humble myself down and kiss your feet. i give you all i am in exchange of all of you. can you pls kindly tell me what you want me to do for you that can please you? i really want to stop living this kind of life and i know that you know how horrible and bad i'm feeling right now. lord, this life is really yours to use and work through. lord, i thank you for listening to my prayers and i believe that i am going to be changed after today. thank you lord. in jesus mighty name i pray, amen.
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I GIVE
Come and fill me Holy Spirit
I seek the warmth of Your embrace
Lord I'm longing for Your presence
Just one touch of Your grace
I'll keep on waiting, waiting on You
All my life I've searched for heaven
My heart it longs for so much more
A love so true, now I've found it in You
I'll keep on waiting, waiting on You
Lord I give my life
A living sacrifice I place at Your feet
I offer to You
For only You can satisfy my longing
Jesus You're all I desire
Lord I give my life
A living sacrifice I place at Your feet
More than what this world offers
You are my only treasure
My world means nothing without You
www.cross.com.sg
piano exam is coming. it dawned on me today when i was talking to mingtse about it. it's 2 weeks away!! ok, though it's only grade 5, but i only started piano like 4 yrs ago and i stopped for 2 1/2 years. and last yr when i started again was like O level so didnt do anything much. and i was so lazy. never practise at all. once again due to bad self discipline. VERY BAD! ok, today i felt so bad that i went home and practised for 1 1/2 hours, but is it too late? i know that even if it's too late, it's better than not practising, but still, God, i want to pass this exam. looking at my standard now, i'll fail for sure- my fingers are super not stable. GOd, how? You must help to keep me focus and be able to concentrate in everything that I do.
-------ONLY FOR THE LORD----------
Dear Lord Jesus, I thank You so much for giving me this precious life that I should never waste every single day. Lord, I just pray that your presence will be so vivid in my life, that i cant live one day without your presence. lord, i just pray that you'll be able to help me fulfil this burden in my heart, to find back the first love. lord, i really really want to do that, and i want to stop this dry religious duty and routine and want to get back to when i first start loving you, worshipping you and serving you just for the sake of you only, cos i love you. lord, i pray that i will have a breakthrough in my spiritual life. lord, i know that you know what i'm thinking and i believe that lord, you'll help me along. lord, i pray that that you'll just pour your mercy and grace upon me so that i can continue this life to be a blessing to the people around me, and i pray you'll give me the unconditional love so that i can love the people around me, for i know that you love them. lord, i pray that you'll help me to remain focus and be able to concentrate in everything i do so that i can get back on the right track with you again. lord, i want to lead this life as a worship to you. i want to just lie flat on the ground, humble myself down and kiss your feet. i give you all i am in exchange of all of you. can you pls kindly tell me what you want me to do for you that can please you? i really want to stop living this kind of life and i know that you know how horrible and bad i'm feeling right now. lord, this life is really yours to use and work through. lord, i thank you for listening to my prayers and i believe that i am going to be changed after today. thank you lord. in jesus mighty name i pray, amen.
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I GIVE
Come and fill me Holy Spirit
I seek the warmth of Your embrace
Lord I'm longing for Your presence
Just one touch of Your grace
I'll keep on waiting, waiting on You
All my life I've searched for heaven
My heart it longs for so much more
A love so true, now I've found it in You
I'll keep on waiting, waiting on You
Lord I give my life
A living sacrifice I place at Your feet
I offer to You
For only You can satisfy my longing
Jesus You're all I desire
Lord I give my life
A living sacrifice I place at Your feet
More than what this world offers
You are my only treasure
My world means nothing without You
www.cross.com.sg
Tuesday, August 09, 2005
nuttin'__
the past few days is just amazing. went to FOP 1 on friday. haha. well, it was such a hot day and i can seriously feel sweat trickling down my legs. haha. but it was all worth it! i was actually wuite pissed off by the usher cos nian ying as obviously queueing with us and i saw the usher looking at her go out and yet when she wanted to get back into the queue, he said that she must give her name to the usher. like hello?? Your fellow ushers look at her go out! then i told him and he said, 'i'm sure my friend there will take down her name', i was like urh. feel like boxing him if i weren't wearing my uniform, cos it'll reflect really bad on you huh? haha. but who cares, they still got in and sat on the floor seats. haha. the session was very good. the presence of God was vry strong, though it's not that kind that makes you cry, but you still can feel it. it's like this very peaceful and nice feeling on the inside. and colin dye was very good also, he was saying that we have the apostolic faith inside us to connect with God in the Spirit, isn't it true? =D darlene is very good, delirious is also very good. haha. we just had fun praise and worship- just that i don't really know delirious' songs.
went to indo the next day and i was so tired. haha. nothing much to do, just eat. so yea. haha. then the next day went to KPN's 26th anniversary at the park. at first it's a big walkathon first at 6.30am. then the final destination is the park. it was so so boring until it's time for the directors to compete in cooking. haha. apparently, guzhang won la. he was so zai in frying the rice and gugu, obviously, is very particular about decorating it so hers is super nice but took the longest to form. anyway, it's still funny that dad won second. he only won in clealiness la. haha. weird, but fun overall. then went home to watch CHC's 16th anniversary through the internet. argh, they look like they're having so much fun and blessing! arh, i also want to go. and i feel that the message is so so good, arh, i wanna bring my frens. hate this feeling. argh..
CROSS is finally out! and stupid me only realised that 'live' worship album is not worship only. ahaha. it was good! when i listened, i got goosebumps on my hands! it was quite good that you hear a CD where you know all the songs and it's anticipated for such a long time. =P
yepx, came back today. hey peeps, how was the national day concert in school? how did we do? can someone kindly tell me? dying to know..
there are 4 ways to which a person assume of being loved:
- material gifts (e.g. money, presents, things that you want/like)
- Kisses, hugs (through touch)
- serving (helping you in different ways for different things)
- just spending time talking, sharing with each other.
which way do you assume of expression of love? =P
went to indo the next day and i was so tired. haha. nothing much to do, just eat. so yea. haha. then the next day went to KPN's 26th anniversary at the park. at first it's a big walkathon first at 6.30am. then the final destination is the park. it was so so boring until it's time for the directors to compete in cooking. haha. apparently, guzhang won la. he was so zai in frying the rice and gugu, obviously, is very particular about decorating it so hers is super nice but took the longest to form. anyway, it's still funny that dad won second. he only won in clealiness la. haha. weird, but fun overall. then went home to watch CHC's 16th anniversary through the internet. argh, they look like they're having so much fun and blessing! arh, i also want to go. and i feel that the message is so so good, arh, i wanna bring my frens. hate this feeling. argh..
CROSS is finally out! and stupid me only realised that 'live' worship album is not worship only. ahaha. it was good! when i listened, i got goosebumps on my hands! it was quite good that you hear a CD where you know all the songs and it's anticipated for such a long time. =P
yepx, came back today. hey peeps, how was the national day concert in school? how did we do? can someone kindly tell me? dying to know..
there are 4 ways to which a person assume of being loved:
- material gifts (e.g. money, presents, things that you want/like)
- Kisses, hugs (through touch)
- serving (helping you in different ways for different things)
- just spending time talking, sharing with each other.
which way do you assume of expression of love? =P
Friday, August 05, 2005
bdae party
so sorry peeps that i promised to come back and update on what happened that night, but i didnt. cos i was way too tired. yepx, so here i am! actually wanted to put the photos we took but since i'm still to lazy to upload it, maybe next time.
cell that day was fun, and the sermon was very good. during cell, andy came and i was actually wondering whether i should go out and say hi to him, but still, i didnt cos i thought that even after cell, he'll still be there. but he left already! and i felt so so bad when lala told me that he came to singapore to buy our present, so sweet of him right? hmm, thanks ya ddyy.. =P really appreciate it loads, your classic pooh. haha.. still feeling bad for him, that he came to singapore without anything done! man, what a lousy cousin i am. ok, i'll try to compensate the next time i see you? haha..
after cell we waited for the others to come, like those from jac's cell and some others like boonkiat, michelle, sally, pastor, etc. well, although only sally turned up, it's still very fun! haha. while waiting, we took a lot a lot of photos and talked. haha. finally after waiting for about 1 hour, they came. so we just had bbq and talked. then ahso and koko came so i was talking to them also. haha. basically i just talked? and while the rest eat, i only got to eat a sausage and a bite of chicken chop. not that they bully me, but i talk too much. haha.
oh ya, i got a 3+3 kg cake! at first i only got a 3 kg cake from awfully chocolate and in the car, josephine sat on it!! I was so so so angry that i screamed at her, and the only thing i wanted to do is to get the original cake, not the one with smudged cream, though she didnt spoil the cake. quite ridiculous of me right? ok, my dad bought for me another 3 kg cake from hagen dazs and i felt super bad cos really la, it wasnt spoilt. oh no. haha. but it's ok! we've finished it anw.
zhenyi, krys and tiff came and i was like trying to spy on them to see whether they brought a can of whipped cream of sth. haha, blame it on my purchase on that can of whipped cream on krystle's bday. haha. but well, they didnt!! woohoo~~ but they made this strawberry trifle that tastes not bad but looks bad. and the hygiene cant make it also. they were saying that at first they arranged the straawberry according to my name already, then when they pour the jelly down, the strawberried started to float so you know what? they used their hands to keep the strawberries down! man, how clean is that! haha.. so we ended up with 3 cakes. not all mine la, share it with jac.
oh, and jac blew 12 of my candles! so i ended up blowing 5 candles! haha. then she'll be 30 years old and i'm 5! yay!! ahaha..
then after that mum called from north carolina and i was tlaking to her that i suddenly got so high. i ran straight to the cake, scrape the cream, and put it on zhenyi's face. haha. she was talking to her member on the phone so could not retaliate. haha. it was so funny. ai, then pauline put on my face! and she was like not excited or what, she just came, put on my face, stood at one side and continued eating her cake. hmm, but i'll never smear cream on her face anyway. haha. ok, then i got naughty and put on krystle's face. argh!! a mistake. then the cream war started and everyone has cream on their hands, ready to smear it on someone else's skin. haha.
when everything was over, i found krystle at the dining room and she was telling me about some photo she took of jac, made me promise a hundred times not to tell jac. to think that i trusted her so much. haha.. then she started showing me all the photos she taken when she took out her cast and within a moment, i was in the pool!! krystle liew!! you're gonna get it from me and jac once you take out your cast!! hmmph!!
ok, she asked me to hide cos she's gonna do the same thing to jac. so i was walking to the toilet behind and lo and behold, i saw zhenyi coming out!! haha. so i targeted her to be my next victim and with jac's help, she too landed in the pool. ok, zhenyi, i do agree that you are the most wu gu, getting facial cream and wet. ahha. but didnt you ahve a lot of fun too?and if you're not wet, your dad wont allow you to stay over right? ahha. or maybe he will. hmm, but that's an experience, isnt it? nvm, we still got lala's bdae!! ahaha.. *evil laugh*
ok, so when everything ended, i was super tired. haha. but isnt it a memorable birthday? when you are around people with the common love and goal-- the love of God that comes and change lives? haha. thanks peeps, for everything! love you guys! and of cos also to those who wished me happy birthday, appreciate it a lot! MEL, it's ok that you sms me only in the evening, at least you remembered!! love you derling.. =P
choir this week has been fun. we just tried to dance, sing and be high for the national day concert. but it's really very high. at least that's what i think, that it made me sad that i cant go. but peeps, i'll give you my support and i hope i've helped you all enough in this first J1 project. love ya guys loads. everything has been just fine for me! that i think i'm going CRAZY! haha..
bible study today was very very good. it's about evangelism, the benefits, costs, ways and eveyrthing about it. and it's been so long since we last had one. so it's not surprising that we had it for 3 hours? ahha.. somewhere there. yep yep, before i go on and become hyper and mad, i better go off le!!
GOd rocks! He's always there when you need Him, when you THINK you dont, and even when things are not right. He's just there, it's up to you to see and feel His presence. Life rcks, treasure it, my dear. I wanna go FOP tml!!! yay~!! bev, lou, qi, joy all going! then we can come together again, just like how we used to! yay! miss you guys loads and we're gonna have such a great time worshipping and praising the Lord!! Lord, do let your presence flow down and touch the empty hearts! I LOVE YOU!! =D
cell that day was fun, and the sermon was very good. during cell, andy came and i was actually wondering whether i should go out and say hi to him, but still, i didnt cos i thought that even after cell, he'll still be there. but he left already! and i felt so so bad when lala told me that he came to singapore to buy our present, so sweet of him right? hmm, thanks ya ddyy.. =P really appreciate it loads, your classic pooh. haha.. still feeling bad for him, that he came to singapore without anything done! man, what a lousy cousin i am. ok, i'll try to compensate the next time i see you? haha..
after cell we waited for the others to come, like those from jac's cell and some others like boonkiat, michelle, sally, pastor, etc. well, although only sally turned up, it's still very fun! haha. while waiting, we took a lot a lot of photos and talked. haha. finally after waiting for about 1 hour, they came. so we just had bbq and talked. then ahso and koko came so i was talking to them also. haha. basically i just talked? and while the rest eat, i only got to eat a sausage and a bite of chicken chop. not that they bully me, but i talk too much. haha.
oh ya, i got a 3+3 kg cake! at first i only got a 3 kg cake from awfully chocolate and in the car, josephine sat on it!! I was so so so angry that i screamed at her, and the only thing i wanted to do is to get the original cake, not the one with smudged cream, though she didnt spoil the cake. quite ridiculous of me right? ok, my dad bought for me another 3 kg cake from hagen dazs and i felt super bad cos really la, it wasnt spoilt. oh no. haha. but it's ok! we've finished it anw.
zhenyi, krys and tiff came and i was like trying to spy on them to see whether they brought a can of whipped cream of sth. haha, blame it on my purchase on that can of whipped cream on krystle's bday. haha. but well, they didnt!! woohoo~~ but they made this strawberry trifle that tastes not bad but looks bad. and the hygiene cant make it also. they were saying that at first they arranged the straawberry according to my name already, then when they pour the jelly down, the strawberried started to float so you know what? they used their hands to keep the strawberries down! man, how clean is that! haha.. so we ended up with 3 cakes. not all mine la, share it with jac.
oh, and jac blew 12 of my candles! so i ended up blowing 5 candles! haha. then she'll be 30 years old and i'm 5! yay!! ahaha..
then after that mum called from north carolina and i was tlaking to her that i suddenly got so high. i ran straight to the cake, scrape the cream, and put it on zhenyi's face. haha. she was talking to her member on the phone so could not retaliate. haha. it was so funny. ai, then pauline put on my face! and she was like not excited or what, she just came, put on my face, stood at one side and continued eating her cake. hmm, but i'll never smear cream on her face anyway. haha. ok, then i got naughty and put on krystle's face. argh!! a mistake. then the cream war started and everyone has cream on their hands, ready to smear it on someone else's skin. haha.
when everything was over, i found krystle at the dining room and she was telling me about some photo she took of jac, made me promise a hundred times not to tell jac. to think that i trusted her so much. haha.. then she started showing me all the photos she taken when she took out her cast and within a moment, i was in the pool!! krystle liew!! you're gonna get it from me and jac once you take out your cast!! hmmph!!
ok, she asked me to hide cos she's gonna do the same thing to jac. so i was walking to the toilet behind and lo and behold, i saw zhenyi coming out!! haha. so i targeted her to be my next victim and with jac's help, she too landed in the pool. ok, zhenyi, i do agree that you are the most wu gu, getting facial cream and wet. ahha. but didnt you ahve a lot of fun too?and if you're not wet, your dad wont allow you to stay over right? ahha. or maybe he will. hmm, but that's an experience, isnt it? nvm, we still got lala's bdae!! ahaha.. *evil laugh*
ok, so when everything ended, i was super tired. haha. but isnt it a memorable birthday? when you are around people with the common love and goal-- the love of God that comes and change lives? haha. thanks peeps, for everything! love you guys! and of cos also to those who wished me happy birthday, appreciate it a lot! MEL, it's ok that you sms me only in the evening, at least you remembered!! love you derling.. =P
choir this week has been fun. we just tried to dance, sing and be high for the national day concert. but it's really very high. at least that's what i think, that it made me sad that i cant go. but peeps, i'll give you my support and i hope i've helped you all enough in this first J1 project. love ya guys loads. everything has been just fine for me! that i think i'm going CRAZY! haha..
bible study today was very very good. it's about evangelism, the benefits, costs, ways and eveyrthing about it. and it's been so long since we last had one. so it's not surprising that we had it for 3 hours? ahha.. somewhere there. yep yep, before i go on and become hyper and mad, i better go off le!!
GOd rocks! He's always there when you need Him, when you THINK you dont, and even when things are not right. He's just there, it's up to you to see and feel His presence. Life rcks, treasure it, my dear. I wanna go FOP tml!!! yay~!! bev, lou, qi, joy all going! then we can come together again, just like how we used to! yay! miss you guys loads and we're gonna have such a great time worshipping and praising the Lord!! Lord, do let your presence flow down and touch the empty hearts! I LOVE YOU!! =D
Sunday, July 31, 2005
nothin
been full eleven days since i last updated my blog. today is my birthday!! haha.. woo~~
these few weeks has been fun and yea, with God's strength, i pulled through everything! CHoir has been fantastic, and we sang very very well for the choral presentation in esplanade. rioHC rox! on wed we had a simple handover cum farewell thing and everyone was crying! it was just so sad that the J2s have to go home and study, leaving u J1s with Ms Lim. Will we be the 2nd batch of pokemon or the pokemon legend just ends there? It's sure hard to keep the reputation up there, but no matter wat, we will do it. WE MUST DO IT, to quote what val said. hahaha..
everything has been just fine, like i had choir everyday last week, and the workshop with the american clinician is so fun. haha. she asked us to flirt, with what? a nonsense song? coconuts? haha. and she said we were very expressive! so funny. yeap, went through all the stress and everything for ELIJAH ROCK and that was our best song. i think my paragraphing is so unstructured but ai, who cares? not a GP essay or what. just that i Have too many things to write and this keyboard is just so not comfortable. haha..
yesterday night lots of people already sms-ed me happy birthdays but i come to realise that it is so ironic that those whom i was close with are the first ones to wish me. thanks guys! and i do appreciate it a lot for your effort to remember and wish me. but i guess that's life right? you can never expect anything from anyone. that's why, look up to God for everything. He will not disappoint you nor forsake you. Thanks God that i have God by my side. =P
going to have a bbq later and think i'm gonna have so much fun. haha.. and i'm going indo next week!! haha. well, i think i'm super hyper so before i type all the 'haha's out, i better run off! bye! take care guys! love you lots.. i'll be back tonight! haha.. cheers, agape
these few weeks has been fun and yea, with God's strength, i pulled through everything! CHoir has been fantastic, and we sang very very well for the choral presentation in esplanade. rioHC rox! on wed we had a simple handover cum farewell thing and everyone was crying! it was just so sad that the J2s have to go home and study, leaving u J1s with Ms Lim. Will we be the 2nd batch of pokemon or the pokemon legend just ends there? It's sure hard to keep the reputation up there, but no matter wat, we will do it. WE MUST DO IT, to quote what val said. hahaha..
everything has been just fine, like i had choir everyday last week, and the workshop with the american clinician is so fun. haha. she asked us to flirt, with what? a nonsense song? coconuts? haha. and she said we were very expressive! so funny. yeap, went through all the stress and everything for ELIJAH ROCK and that was our best song. i think my paragraphing is so unstructured but ai, who cares? not a GP essay or what. just that i Have too many things to write and this keyboard is just so not comfortable. haha..
yesterday night lots of people already sms-ed me happy birthdays but i come to realise that it is so ironic that those whom i was close with are the first ones to wish me. thanks guys! and i do appreciate it a lot for your effort to remember and wish me. but i guess that's life right? you can never expect anything from anyone. that's why, look up to God for everything. He will not disappoint you nor forsake you. Thanks God that i have God by my side. =P
going to have a bbq later and think i'm gonna have so much fun. haha.. and i'm going indo next week!! haha. well, i think i'm super hyper so before i type all the 'haha's out, i better run off! bye! take care guys! love you lots.. i'll be back tonight! haha.. cheers, agape
Tuesday, July 19, 2005
God! Help me! I'm in desperate need for Your strength! I'm just about to breakdown! this few weeks has been super super hectic for me. Siva rushing us to do everything for PW. can you imgaine? first draft of written report by next friday and my group has not even finished the survey and interviews! the worst thing is that everyone is super busy this weekend, so when can we find the time to meet up? argh!! and by this friday he wants to see our group project file. guess what? i only found two articles and the greatest thing is that the computer with printer got no internet! somehow it cant connect. like so sad.
Oh, and I also got choir everyday this week! monday was normal prac, tue is FDR for HC arts fest, wed is FDR for SYF presentation at esplanade, thu is workshop with american clinician at CCAB, sat is choir prac. you'll never know if there is prac on fri. and despite of hard work, we're still not up there yet. especially for elijah, every time the song starts, it doesnt start right. ARGH!!!!! and all the practices are really draining all our energy away. but we have no choice. we have to sing well this time in spite of the blaspheming ticket price of $3. it's ok, we must be a professional choir, shining for every performance we have. it's just taking up quite a lot of time and i have to miss quite a few lessons this week. argh! argH! so i cant get back my econs essay and bio block test paper, cos i'll be leaving early for wed and thur. argh! not that i mind, but argh! anyway, i still love choir. haha.
this thurs is my chem test for independent learning, kinetics and energetics and oh my, i havent even started studying. help me! argh! and i got lots of tutorial to catch up with! this week like got 5 biology tutorial lessons. =( argh! I'm like so stressed. i want time, time, time.
God, i just want to commit everything that i am doing in YOur hands, I give You all I am in exchange for all of You. Lord, I really long for Your presence, Your wisdom, Your power and strength. Oh God, I thank You for everything that has happened and is going to happen in my life. I'll continue to trust in You for You are my solid rock on whom i can depend.
Oh, and I also got choir everyday this week! monday was normal prac, tue is FDR for HC arts fest, wed is FDR for SYF presentation at esplanade, thu is workshop with american clinician at CCAB, sat is choir prac. you'll never know if there is prac on fri. and despite of hard work, we're still not up there yet. especially for elijah, every time the song starts, it doesnt start right. ARGH!!!!! and all the practices are really draining all our energy away. but we have no choice. we have to sing well this time in spite of the blaspheming ticket price of $3. it's ok, we must be a professional choir, shining for every performance we have. it's just taking up quite a lot of time and i have to miss quite a few lessons this week. argh! argH! so i cant get back my econs essay and bio block test paper, cos i'll be leaving early for wed and thur. argh! not that i mind, but argh! anyway, i still love choir. haha.
this thurs is my chem test for independent learning, kinetics and energetics and oh my, i havent even started studying. help me! argh! and i got lots of tutorial to catch up with! this week like got 5 biology tutorial lessons. =( argh! I'm like so stressed. i want time, time, time.
God, i just want to commit everything that i am doing in YOur hands, I give You all I am in exchange for all of You. Lord, I really long for Your presence, Your wisdom, Your power and strength. Oh God, I thank You for everything that has happened and is going to happen in my life. I'll continue to trust in You for You are my solid rock on whom i can depend.
Tuesday, July 12, 2005
Block test...
been so super long since i last blogged huh? hehe. gues i've been too busy about the block test. it's finally over! woo~! seriously, i felt that i've not done my best, as in i didn't do the paper properly, and i didn't study enough either. the whole block test was quite horrible, in the sense that I didn't complete one paper of each subject. and I just felt so terrible after the paper that one day I just broke down and cried. the first subject-GP wasn't very well done, I felt that AQ was lousy, chem was blegh. everything was just not good. my maths, which is the only hope I had, wasnt good either. as in my calculator batt went flat and i can literally hear the devil laughing at me, once again. scary right? i was sort of having a spiritual warfare during the paper, and I was like God, how come the batt went flat at this paper, what am I supposed to do? so i was praying till i felt His peace. then i went to press the calculator and it came back! praise God! but still, felt that i won't do well. so can you imagine how upset I was by the end of the week, well, more of depressed. and i just can't have that faith in Him, though i want to, but there's just this thought- you're going to fail. so sad right?
On friday, joined mummy's adult cell and pastor was sharing about living your life for Christ, how we get our prayers answered by praying for something in His name, that can glorify Him. i was so encouraged by the message i forced myself to have faith in Him, no matter what. i don't deny that i still have doubts but everytime i thought about the paper, i'll pray and proclaim that i'm putting it into His hands. so that weekend was quite ok for me, as in i felt the peace of God, and i believe that He'll open a door for me to glorify Him somehow. =P so yea.. hehe. was so happy that I turn back to hold on to Him.
the next thurs, I got my papers back. woo~ I did quite ok. haha. like my math, miraculously, got 75- just an A. not a mark less nor more. isn't God good? He just helps you in time. God will make a way, when there seems to be no way. and my chem got 71, which is a B- but i thought it was way more than what I expected already. also, got back P1 and P2 of my econs. got 40/50! waiting for the other 25 marks essay. isn't Gos just wonderful? I believe 100% that without Him, everything has been so impossible. everything will just fall apart. and seriously, He is the God who cares for all things, not only spiritual things, but more of character. and I just simply love His greatness.
On friday, joined mummy's adult cell and pastor was sharing about living your life for Christ, how we get our prayers answered by praying for something in His name, that can glorify Him. i was so encouraged by the message i forced myself to have faith in Him, no matter what. i don't deny that i still have doubts but everytime i thought about the paper, i'll pray and proclaim that i'm putting it into His hands. so that weekend was quite ok for me, as in i felt the peace of God, and i believe that He'll open a door for me to glorify Him somehow. =P so yea.. hehe. was so happy that I turn back to hold on to Him.
the next thurs, I got my papers back. woo~ I did quite ok. haha. like my math, miraculously, got 75- just an A. not a mark less nor more. isn't God good? He just helps you in time. God will make a way, when there seems to be no way. and my chem got 71, which is a B- but i thought it was way more than what I expected already. also, got back P1 and P2 of my econs. got 40/50! waiting for the other 25 marks essay. isn't Gos just wonderful? I believe 100% that without Him, everything has been so impossible. everything will just fall apart. and seriously, He is the God who cares for all things, not only spiritual things, but more of character. and I just simply love His greatness.
Wednesday, July 06, 2005
Block test.
Block test is over!!! hahahaha... so happy! today's bio paper was a total killer. i really don't know how to do, but it's ok! I shall just rely on His strength for everything, for I know that everything is according to His plan and in everything that happens, I'll be able to bring glory to His name! Let Your will be done, that i can just bring glory to You.
now I'm getting back to my normal life, where i don't have to study ONLY! =P i'll just wait for my results to be out. =P
now I'm getting back to my normal life, where i don't have to study ONLY! =P i'll just wait for my results to be out. =P
Friday, June 24, 2005
God's Word
this whole studying period has sort of drawn me closer to God.
"My child, I want you to go all the way out to reach out to your friends. ALL THE WAY OUT. and know that I am going to give you the courage and strength to get the words out of your mouth."
Yes, Lord. If that is what You want me to do to make You happy, I'll do that. =P
an ordinary person working for an eXtraordinary God, to do eXtraordinary things in an eXtraordinary way!!
"My child, I want you to go all the way out to reach out to your friends. ALL THE WAY OUT. and know that I am going to give you the courage and strength to get the words out of your mouth."
Yes, Lord. If that is what You want me to do to make You happy, I'll do that. =P
an ordinary person working for an eXtraordinary God, to do eXtraordinary things in an eXtraordinary way!!
Thursday, June 23, 2005
Block test.
so super sian-ded by all the studying! it's all about BIO, CHEM, ECONS and MATHS. at first it is, but after that it's not. it's more about glorifying God with everything that I do.
went back to Medan on fri. we had a short memorial service at home for ama's 1 year's bdae in heaven. isn't that wonderful? she didnt have to suffer everything in this earth, all the illness and pain, but she's in heaven, just worshipping God her whole life. she's walking on roads made of pure gold, not marble or what. and she's looking down on us, all praising God for bringing her up. the WL said a story which truly hit me: once, there was a family and the daughter of the family is getting married. at first they cried, thinking that they'll 'lose' their daughter. but looking at the couple so satisfied and happy, the tears of sorrow slowly became tears of joy. at first i thought that it was irrelevant to the occasion? after that he continued: similarly, when our beloved mom/ama went up to the heaven one year ago, it's inevitable that we'll shed tears of sorrow. even until now, when we think of her, we might still tear, but that'll be the tears that comes out as we remember the impact she made in our lives, the touch and difference that she created. =P
i just remembered years ago, she was still such a devoted Buddhist, praying in front of that altar in her house almost every single day, and she was just so so hard in the heart. but after talking to her, caring for her, praying for her, and everything, she became a believer. isn't that the most most amazing thing that can ever happen in life? her hardness in heart was just just so beyond words. but she even got baptised!! praise God. look at how true and perfect God's love is. she's really an example that inspired me, cos i've seriously never seen someone so devoted to her religion, that she really just dislikes Christianity, and yet God's love can touch her and she can be a believer. who can't then?
ok, enough of my short break!! shall get back to my bonding. i love to bond with God! not with molecules and ions!!
went back to Medan on fri. we had a short memorial service at home for ama's 1 year's bdae in heaven. isn't that wonderful? she didnt have to suffer everything in this earth, all the illness and pain, but she's in heaven, just worshipping God her whole life. she's walking on roads made of pure gold, not marble or what. and she's looking down on us, all praising God for bringing her up. the WL said a story which truly hit me: once, there was a family and the daughter of the family is getting married. at first they cried, thinking that they'll 'lose' their daughter. but looking at the couple so satisfied and happy, the tears of sorrow slowly became tears of joy. at first i thought that it was irrelevant to the occasion? after that he continued: similarly, when our beloved mom/ama went up to the heaven one year ago, it's inevitable that we'll shed tears of sorrow. even until now, when we think of her, we might still tear, but that'll be the tears that comes out as we remember the impact she made in our lives, the touch and difference that she created. =P
i just remembered years ago, she was still such a devoted Buddhist, praying in front of that altar in her house almost every single day, and she was just so so hard in the heart. but after talking to her, caring for her, praying for her, and everything, she became a believer. isn't that the most most amazing thing that can ever happen in life? her hardness in heart was just just so beyond words. but she even got baptised!! praise God. look at how true and perfect God's love is. she's really an example that inspired me, cos i've seriously never seen someone so devoted to her religion, that she really just dislikes Christianity, and yet God's love can touch her and she can be a believer. who can't then?
ok, enough of my short break!! shall get back to my bonding. i love to bond with God! not with molecules and ions!!
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