Saturday - 31/3/07

"Don't know la, get in first then say. Never get don't even need to think or discuss", you might often hear me saying this previously. Now, you would hear me saying, "how?!" -

Saturday was eventful. Starting a Saturday at 6.30am with the excuse that I need to think about interview Q&A, I prayed. Interview was alright- it's more of a business discussion, about the issue of Starbucks opening in Forbidden City. I would say that I was relatively lucky with a topic that I sort of knew about, hence it became more like a GP class. The professor was wearing singlet, sunglasses and cap, and he was muscular. A Korean guy, the last profession I would think of would be professor. Wrote an essay on Materialism. I thank God, for everything. That it went off alright. Not that it's fantastic, but it was still a relief that it's over. One by one, His face shows, as long as we continue to keep Him close.

After that, I fed my soul with very interesting cases Uncle John and Dr.Ang have met so far. The purpose of us going was Jessica's consultation. I learnt the importance of being curious and more than that, the structure of the brain at a glance. How limbic system affects the way you feel, and then the way you think, and in turn how you feel again. So we 'ruminate' in that vicious cycle. We can stop it actually. =) Too many cases to be written here, but it was good. I felt so connected and satisfied in my soul once again. Had a nice lunch on top of that too. =)

Later that night, I checked the admission decision for Emory. Previously, Dad was showing me the recent BusinessWeek on S-1 Business Programme, and Emory was ranked 4th. Not that it matters greatly, but the word simply kept on popping out these few days. When I opened the newspaper on Sunday and looked at the SMU advert, the President of Law School used to teach in Emory. Emory again, I thought it was a school no one knows.

Dear Jocelin,
Congratulations on your acceptance to Emory College! The standardized tests, the paperwork, and the waiting are all at an end, and you have arrived at an important beginning. It gives me great pleasure to invite you to join the Emory University community as a member of our entering class. Your academic record is an impressive match for our challenging learning environment.

And it goes on....

Now is the time for me to think through it, go, or stay? I have learnt to shut out all voices around me, but retreat and isolate myself in the silence of God. For in the natural realm, it's more than obvious that I want to go. However, I really want to know God's will for me and I don't want to miss out on what He wants me to do. I dont want to be at the wrong place and the wrong time with the wrong people doing the wrong things. As long as one aspect is 'wrong', I won't want it anymore. Lord, can you guide me? Please?

2 worries: 1. Let go of everything here
2. Lead a new life there.

However, it seems as if the 2nd worry is already diminished with Mimi I-i and WeiSiong Su2 there. Is this part of God's plan too?

I don't know. And for now, I can only pray.......

After the news, I went for BBQ, had loads of fun. Is that a day or a day? :) And Joce is a happy girl, other than the fact she has to choose.

A Level Results!

The long awaited A Level results are finally out! 'Can you check your particulars? Cos you got 4 distinctions or more, so they might send you invitation for prize giving.' my heart jumped; my limbs stopped shivering; i stopped breathing. Praise God!!

Thinking back, it was really by God's grace. Last year studying period wasn't fantastic at all, moodswings up and down; emotions; self-esteem; motivation. I thank God for simply being there, for darlings to be around me, giving me a surprise one day before exam - Sophie, Steph, Yunxi, Sam, Nianying, Susan; for angels to study with me who always push me on when it gets sooo dry- Tiff, Dora, Sean, Ming, Huixuan, Jiayin; for family who are always there to accomodate; and simply, Father in Heaven for sending all these people and lifting up my troubles everytime I come to Him.

Thank God, and thank you all for all the concern, prayers, encouragement and love. Especially to all the uncles and aunties out there, real touched that you guys cared so much. LOVE.

Now that everything is over, I just pray that God continue to guide me in His ways, that I will know what I should do next. stay? or go? if go, go where? if stay, stay where? Lord, I can't do this without You because I don't wanna run from the path You've prepared for me. Lifting myself up to You......

God is good.