post- prelim

a bit outdated but oh wells, better than never.
the reality of exams ending seem like a dream come true that i feel weird. it's weird that it's over, that i can see myself appearing in theresia's birthday party. hah. but it's not the quantity of time spent not studying but the quality of time. went to do so many things after that, like

baking with 3 wonderful darlings MING, TIFF, LINX! it was fun! haha. created many sinful temptations: 1) Hersheys' best brownies a lil' too chocolate-y
2) Chewy Peanut butter Kisses stupid me forgot to turn on
the oven & poor linx had to eat dough (yeah chewy dough)
which caused diaorrhea
3) Apricot Oatmeal Biscuits my favourite being not too
sweet.
But then again, it's not about the food but about the heart to heart connection we had after we finished baking. really drew so close to tiff when i totally understand how she feels about growing up. much like me huh.

Thursday was wonderful!! ADORA! =) really talked non-stop. first coffee bean and then pasta cafe and it seems as if we just dont get tired of talking, especially when it's about spiritual things. everything just seems to be wonderful in Him and simply love you more after the sharing. =) After that was Bible Study, yeah and wonderful mich pay told pastor the wrong chapter and we all had to prepare an offering message to preach. ok, but i learnt a lot a lot so no complains, simply thank God for the chance and yes, MICH PAY!

Was already so tired of going out. What more school on tuesday, and GP!! but monday was still good. went to joy's chalet and really missed wate a lot so it was good. praise God. =)=)

Everything is good. Praise the Lord but results have only shown that it's no longer time to play. I have to buck up buck up buck up. actually I don't know what's wrong, I seem to know my stuff but can't do well for exams. WHY? is it that i over-study that eveyrhting becomes muddle-headed and i'm no longer clear? it seems as if I can't think and evaluate anymore. =( WHO CAN TELL?

Thank God for encouragements that is at least different, telling me that now is the critical period and it makes heaven loads of difference about what I do now. ok, so for now i'm going to study even harder. and thank GOd or friends to encourage cos I realised it's even better listening to my own words than others. when i encourage, i'm surprised at my words and will be encouraged too. anyway if i genuinely want my friends to be encouraged at my words, i have to be convinced by it and put it into action too. joce, remember, you can be disappointed for prelims but dont even be discouraged. the most important is that you can say, no regrets, even after results come out; rather than "I should have done this, done that...."

"Lord, I life up all my results into Your Hands, I wont deny that I am thankful for some, disappointed with the others, but still no matter what I will lift them up to YOu, for You are the only one who can deal in me and make me do things heartily. So for the next two months or so, it'll just be in my prayers that I can continue to press in and walk to strongly in You, that when i sidetrack You put me back on track and that when I find no motivation, You motivate me. Lord I pray that this exams I am going to shine for You like never before, that I can study in the Spirit and be so Spirit oriented in everything, because YOu are the CREATOR of all knowledge, of heaven and earth and though no one knows what questions are coming out, YOU ARE THE CREATOR OF A LEVELS and You will simply guide me into it. I also pray for all my friends around me who are going through the same thing, that YOu be the guide and comforter, from those who know you to those who don't, i thank You that YOu love every single one of them. I pray You'll hold their hands and keep them on: Lou, Bel, Sarah, Bev, Qi, Dixon, Sharon, Pris, Adora, Linx, Shao, Ben, Edmund, Mingtse, Tiffy, Sean, Huixuan, Jiayin, Pam, Kaiqian, Charlene, Jielong, Shiru, Chelly, Xuanyi....." In Jesus' name I pray, Amen.

I'm going to lift it all up to Him, yes, only HIm. even if I dont know how and seem to not be able to do so, I will force myself to do so. Please guide me.

FINALLY!

Prelims is finally finally over. phew. i can't imagine one month has just zoomed by. and if this 1 month is so fast, the next 1 month will too. prelims, oh well, when is internal exam easy but i have decided to pray my way through, like what i've always done.

Lord, I know that everything now is in Your hands as I let you hold it up. I simply pray that I can shine for You this time again, the last internal exam in HwaChong. Lord, I know with this faith and Your grace, ALL is in Your Hands. I thank You before hand. Amen.

FIRST

I LOVE, BECAUSE YOU FIRST LOVED ME
I LIVE, BECAUSE OF WHAT YOU GAVE
YOU DIED, SHOWED ME HOW TO LIVE
YOUR MERCY TAUGHT ME TO FORGIVE

YOU CAME AND POURED YOURSELF SO FREE
YOUR BLOOD WASHED AWAY MY SHAME
AND NOW I CAN LIVE AGAIN
I'M MORE OF YOU AND LESS OF ME

MY FIRST LOVE
FOREVER YOU WILL BE
MY FIRST BREATH
YOU'RE THE LIFE IN ME
MY FIRST JOY
THE WORLD CAN NEVER TAKE FROM ME
MY COVENANT WITH YOU
JESUS

YOUR LOVE FALLS DOWN
YOUR LOVE FALLS DOWN
YOUR LOVE FALLS DOWN
OVER ME