MyRiAd! A success!!

woohoo~ super duper high now. choir rocks man!! we just had our concert and it so totally rocks!! I still remember myself stressing over the miserable ticket sales. just imagine, last friday it was 100 out of 800, on wed was 300, and thurs suddenly become 600!! on Friday, Woon sms-ed and said we got FULL HOUSE! wow. haha. praise the Lord!! miracle happened?

went to meet dear linx at 11 at city hall, then the sops at 12 for lunch. thank God we were not late. went to cafe cartel, and our food came only like at 1pm and we finished eating by 1.20pm. Think we just gobbled everything down. went to VCH straight and then got changed. hoo, the lift is so scary. the lights will flicker and it will jerk. and shao was like telling me all the ghost stories in VCH. haha. then had a tech run once, and after that the J1s we up on stage singing. man, we sang super lousily! Miss Lim was like so super angry and of course, we were super demoralised. everyone just had a common goal- to sing well and just sing well. after we warmed up, everything was ok, although we werent fantastic yet. everything was just so fast. dinner, make up, hair, etc.

and so there it was, at 7.30, our first item. woo~ i forgot to sing one part and everything was just fine, we did our best and i think it's the best we've ever sung so far. kaung'a was erm, ok. after the drums come in, a bit CMI but over all ok. the J2s were good. Well done seniors! you guys totally rock! let's move on to the college songs! i feel that sleep is ok, with the fact that we only combined like 3 or 5 times. not that bad. hehe. and night was phew~ the sops. wow. my dad say got people say that the whole choir is up tothe international standard. haha. hmm~ bin-nam-ma, was impressive overall, to those who heard it for the first time.the impact was so so great! haha. anyway, well done choir! next up will be the malaysian trip and SYF presentation. haiz, then cant go cell again. ;(

tomorrow off i go to australia! and I think i'll be enjoying myself! haha. better pack my stuff now. i love choir!!!!!

EEP is over! I want more.

today is the end of the term, which means that the june holidays are here! Anyway, this week has been a very relaxed week for me so I thought that it made no difference. I loved my past 3 days! in these 3 days, my whole life was just revolved around music. Song composition in the morning to the afternoon, after that is choir practice. the song composition guy is so cool la. he can just listen to a song, then play the chord and melody on the keyboard straight away. come up with a new melody straight on the spot. to think that he has grade 0 on theory and piano, like wow. haha. he's just amazing. not bad. hmm.

Throughout the course, I learnt quite a bit of stuff. like how to not just listent o a song but more of analyzing it, where's the hook, what instruments are involved, and the proxidy of the lyrics and the melody. and also the process of a song being written to how it's up to the public. man, everything is done so quickly through computer. i wonder why some producer or song writer can still have perfect eyesight after staring at the computer for more than 10 hours without stop. well, i guess there's no such person, maybe? in these 3 days, i've written a few bars of melody in the group, not bad at all. hehe. i'm determined to continue writing so that nothing from this course goes to waste. hehe. i also learnt the typical structure of chinese ballads and after then that i realised that every song is so the same.

I'm so irritated by PW. our GPP is still rejected after 3 drafts. tomorrow still must go school and meet him to discuss our project, when i have to prepare the concert at like 12+. argh!! why must he spoil my day everytime? hmm.. I've been quite slack these few days, hasnt been meeting my study plan. so sad, feel so super shi bai. but why am i so lazy? i cant understand myself. i can just sit on the bed for hours stoning!! that's very bad. how? who can help me?? I want to stop stoning!!!!!!!!! I want to study!! I want to get rid of this shi bai feeling! I want to write beautiful melodies!! I want to play chords! Help!! I want to sing and perform well for the concert tomorrow!!!!! argh!!

i had chem test today, and i think i'm going to do so badly. oh no, how arh? i'm like failing all my test!! help! except for maths. but still, that's like so lousy. haiz, how? not that i didnt study. i think i'm not very very sure of my concepts, that's why doubts arise when I was doing the test.

Today was the basketball's finals, A boys and girls. Girls is between Hwa Chong and Victoria and Boys between Hwa CHong and Temasek. our girls won! 68-34. but our guys lost-- 73-65. anyway, it's ok. it's not that much behind anyway, only 8 points. hee, so it's ok la. but I didnt really get the chance to watch properly. School releases us at 12.40 to go but Dr siva insisted on us staying for his PW lesson. and wat? he starts at 1.30 to 1.50! and because of that we can only take the 2.45 bus. so irritating. hmm. and i have to leave the sports hall at 3.15 for choir practice. so i practically go there to talk to Lou. haha. reached there, talked to her, and when i went back to the HC side, the first match ended! oh ya, wtfk, if anyone of you happen to read, so sorry that you all cant come to my house on sun. my mom say better not, cos i need to pei my dad. haha. sorry yep? and thanks so much for understanding. you all are the best guys ever! love you all loads la. even in HC or NJ, I couldnt find anyone as fantastic, understanding, selfless, caring as you guys. thanks yea? i miss you all loads loads. everyone is saying that they miss AH life and frens, and I don't differ. ;)

Concert is next sat, 28th May, VCH, 7.30pm and tickets are sold at $12. anyone would care to go? ;) you can contact me if you want to go. thanks! as i said, concert is coming. and obviously, we're practising like mad. we just had practice from 4 to 8 today, and 9 to 4 tomorrow, 12 to 3 on mon, and also the whole of next week. yea man, we can do it!! sure can pull thru and shine!! esp the sops. jia you peeps! ;)

i did my block test studying plan a few days ago, and the first studying day is supposed to be today. haiz, must have discipline right. yeah, let's do it! Here I go to finish my work and remember kaung'a yachee and sigulempong. haha. got actions some more. :p

Is it me?

Well, I got back 2 tests today. I got 32% for my econs essay test and 36% for my bio test. Super discouraged and demoralised. Am I really that stupid? Or I think I wasnt really prepared enough. And for the essay test, I went in with complete ignorance of the essay writing skills. hmm, is it possible for me to improve? God, I really need your strength and encouragement. I know people has been telling me that it'll be ok and everything but yet, I hate to admit that I am doubtful of my own ability. So I think I really need GOd's wisdom and strength ba. This fri I'll be having a chem test. I tell myself, I cannot not do well for this test. I believe that GOd's purpose for me right here is not to fail and do badly. but it's to shine for Him. I guess this will be a lesson for me- I've never scored such grades before- that no matter what happens, I should still turn back to Him and tap for His eternal source of strength. So i really really must Jia you for the upsoming block test la. Thanks to all your guys who've talkked to me and encouraged me. Especially to Zhenyi, thanks so so much yea? From yesterday, I've been bothering you when you're having a test. I didnt know. sorry. but thanks for all the advice, guidance, encouragement, everything! You're just simply a gem. :)

finding time and energy in the midst of 'no time'

hoohoo. this week is a super hectic week for me. with bio test on tue, GP essay test on thurs, chem SPA and maths lect test on fri. boohoo.. God, I really need Your strength to go on and endure through, and yea, I'm gonna shine for Ya!! =)

I think I gained 10 kg over the weekend! feel so fat now. haha. Wonder how a Mothers' Day can do this. hmm, firstly, on fri went to Amara Hotel and ate buffet. Man, the chocolate cake is nice. Then the next day I'm supposed to go for Sports' Day and I pon! haha. At night went to Turf City and ate the seafood restaurant. I think it's super rich in everything! haha. like lobster, clam, fish, crab, etc. That's not it! On sunday night, we ate steamboat and cut cake at night, 9pm. Yea, so I think you guys understand how fat i grow after this weekend. haha.

today I went to paint banner for the annual choir concert, Myriad, and got paint all over my hands. The worst thing is that the paint is enamel paint, so it's like stuck on my hands, and there are blots on my skirt! Well, I just bought my skirt 1 month ago. BLue and white on brown uniform is not nice. and my dear friend spilled the tin of aluminium. On himself, apparently and it got stuck to his hair, specs, hands, everything! some got to my hair too. trying all ways not to cut it out though. I'll cry!

After that went to church for the conference with Rev. Phil Pringle. Wah, his son and the girl singer, Nikki Fletcher, if I'm not wrong, are super cute la. She's so chio and he's quite ok, not bad. pei each other. haha. and the presence of God was super super strong at the last part. How i wish I can stay there forever. It's really something that is so undescribable and once you enter, you never wanna leave and can live there forever. My eyes are super pain now, must be from all the crying. haha. but it was very good. He said that we, as believers, have 4 faces in us: of course, the humanity, where we ARE humans. face of lion, which represents leadership, that we reign over all devils; oxen, with a spirit to serve and eagle, which means our spiritual side- praying, worshipping, praising. But the whole sermon also dwells a lot on visions and destiny. haha. so refreshed now. I'm sure I can pull through the week.

YAY!! Tomorrow Ms Lim coming for choir prac! Then we'll know what the judges think of us. haha. and of course, sectionals! to learn new fun songs (finally) for the concert. haha. i better go and do my work now!! ;) take care and God bless you guys.. -AgApE

SYF! Finally... all the way! =D

haha. SYF is over! though i've not joined the choir like most of the J1s, I've put in my effort, learnt the songs in 4 weeks, have not given up. and here we are, gaining ourselves Gold With Honours and invitation to SYF opening ceremony on 25th July @ the Esplanade. haha. i could still remember the scene very clearly, walking to the tuning room with the serenity prayer in my heart all the time, even on stage. well, i totally believe that if it wasn't for the peace and strength from GOd, i would probably have shivered like mad on stage. really just thank GOd, not for the award but the strength and the concentration. it was really the first time after I joined the choir that i wasn't afraid of singing in front of other schools. and i didnt miss any 'chicken's for Bin-nam-ma! haha..

choir for the last three practices hasn't been that fantastic, yesterday was bad. Ms Lim used words like 'sai', 'shit', 'sickening', 'crap', etc. It was so super demoralising. I just felt like giving up, that i dreamt that the Soprano screwed up the whole SYF and couldn't fall asleep again. yeah, but thank God, we made it.

On stage, we just sang like normal, though we went sharp and rushed a bit for Bin-nam-ma. anyway, all the choirs went sharp today! haha. so it's ok. but at least the gan jue was sort of there. not really, but better than any practices, since HC is well known for being si ban. haha. and people tell us that we're the liveliest choir just now. like 'huh?' the teacher went around the hall and asked people what they think about us and they just simply say 'engaging'. haha. guess it's all the actions ba. anyway, don say le. cos the only word that can be used to describe this whole thing is 'undescribable'.

When it was time for the results to be announced, I was like super nervous, cos the scene for 2003 SYF kept coming back. "Anglican High Schools-- a pause-- Silver-- another pause-- sniffing, clapping".. and so here it was, this year's competition results. 'National Junior College'- Gold. I was still telling my fren, if Nj got GWH, we have to scream for them. but yea, i guess it's not their fault. they sang in between 2 GOOD choirs- AC, the choir of the yearS and VJ, one of the most interesting choirs of Mr. NElson Kwei. they sang their best, and they know that it's unlikely that the judges will give 3 GWH in a row. so yeah, well done NJChoir! you all are already a choir with GWH!! continue to JIA YOU! ;) RJ was before us and before they announced the result, i was like Gold or GWH? as in the judges won't give 2 Gold with honours in a row either.

On the way back to school on the bus, we just kept on singing songs- it was so heartwarming! all the hwa chu songs. what can I say except to thank God again? for everything. that thru this whole SYF i really integrated into the choir. and for the strength He gave me to endure everything through. the next aim will be the Myraid concert on 28th May. we shall all work towards the better!! yeah!

now that the whole syf is over, time to focus back on my schoolwork, time to catch up with everything. Jia you jia you jia you!!

"I have fought the good fight, I have finished the race, I have kept the faith." -2 Timothy 4:7

Finally.... passion once again..

phew, finally. a holiday. although it's only one day, I still thank God for it. at least i got one full day to get back the energy and motivation and oomph. here i go again. well, did practically nothing except for GPP and choir prac today. haha. and of cos to create this thing here. SYF is like 2 days away, and yet my throat is still not in its full strength. =( tried all means to get it back, pi pa gao, lime water, redoxon, etc. haha. today i went for choir prac- gan jue just not there. we're like cold-blooded animals! and we never seem to be able to sing well in front of people. NJ came and listened. we've never sang well in front of them anyways. so sad. looking forward to wed, when all our hard work will bring us the results. no matter what it is, i'm sure i can thank God for it cos it really doesnt matter wat we have- at least we've put in our best these months. well, all i know is that it helped me integrate into the choir much better. i miss my days in NJ choir man. not that i'm not enjoying myself here, but i miss all the people there. recently, everytime i see them, time seems to only allow us to say 'hi'. :(

Enough about all the choir stuff. haha. well, just now one of my frens cried! I was so touched by her. She really encouraged me by her passion for her friends and loved ones. and it really reminded me of myself last year. how i wish i can get back that gan-jue. something that really motivates you to live on and caring for one another. I don't care. I must get it back today!!

I am looking forward so so much to EMERGE!! it's really a time where i can emerge! haha. still got 1 months +. :( but i don't know if i can join the activities. ;( my family asking me to avail myself for holidays, about 1 week. but if i go after emerge, then no time to study for block test le. if i go before, my POS how??!! God, please give me the wisdom to sort out my time.

Anyway, it's getting quite late le. I don't often go online cos of the heavy workload. or otherwise, i actually prefer spending time in my room, reading magazines, books or Bible. haha. i got to take my dinner now.