11 days more to go, HELP!

11 more days to go and I sort of feel that i'm not prepared. it's as if the more i do, the more muddle-headed i get. like dont know what i am doing. but still, I refuse to confess negatively no matter what.

and yes, LORD, PLEASE HELP ME! ok, I realised that it's not about whether He'll work in me but whether i'll let Him work in me. So please HELP me!!! I can't go on like this. Thank GOd for God really. haha. Cell group was super good, when once again I could feel the presence of God overwhelming my entire heart, that I can be here writing about it now. if not I wouldn't even be bothered to do anything. It's really not a mistake that I went for cell group then. =)

been doing loads of university applications and CV. I need refreshing in my Spirit, and Lord, only that you can do. =) So Lord, I pray that you'll be the one pushing me on because this is tough, very tough and I almost cannot go on well anymore, if You dont come in and help. So today I declare that I'm totally open to YOur works that anything You want to do in me, through me and with me I'll totally let You, that I can be totally open and vulnerable to YOu. I give you all that I am in exchange for all that YOu are. I know i have my weaknesses, but only YOU shine in them. So Lord, I simply pray that You'll push me on. that i'm going to give my best shot during this last lap. Lord, I also just lift up my friends into YOur Hands, as I am dried up, I believe most of them are, also because it's just so natural to be tired. but Lord, I pray You'll take away any fatigue in them and refresh them in the mind Lord, that they'll know that some being higher up there is working with them. and Lord, please help them along as well because i know for sure you love them no matter what. amen.

YOu guys taking A's there, I know it's tough, very tough. but then again, just walk on because we have to. and not for that only, if not it seems so unwilling and reluctant. ok, walk on because we want to not just walk but to walk on WELL. take care and GOd bless dears. love ya.

29 more days to go.

ask me why I am so moody. I hope it is PMS and not me. been super serious past few days, or maybe it is the exams that caused me to be like that. I hope it doesn't last long, really. I seem to lose all the joy and 'talk-non-stop' me but 'ok, study, joce study'. who asks me to be so ill-disciplined in my studying that even I am frustrated with my pace and attitude of studying. God, I need discipline!!

Prelims hasn't been too good. Fancy getting DEAD. Should I take it just like that? I hope it doesn't come to pass anyways. I know that words matters life and death, but I hope not this time.

Ok, buck up Joce. buck up. STUDY!! 29 more days to go....