Chinese New Year 07

Yeah, thank God for another wonderfully enjoyable Chinese New Year. My family, me and my dearest extended family. Again, it was good. Laughing, chatting, crapping, EATING. GOSH, yeah, we ate a lot. I gained 2kgs in 2 days. great. But then again, this year, I felt a tinge of sadness. Nowadays, every single time we gather, I feel something weird. A feeling I am so unfamiliar with I want to cry. I think it's the fear of losing whatever I have now. A great family, who is more than just there but one in which every single member truly cares for. sheesh, I start to wonder, how long more are we going to stay like that? before each of us get so caught up with our own lives. School, work, friends, girlfriend/boyfriend etc. Things will never be the same again. 3 years? 5? or 10?

Even now, you can already see the groups. The young adults - jac, andy, me, vince; the in-betweens - kiki, titi, anton, clifton, sharon; the growing up kids - osbert, chris, ford, josephine; those still caught in a world of their own - jessica, joanne and probably caleb. The guys turning my computer room into a LAN gaming centre, with 5 laptops all at one go, playing CS or Dota. Some of us watching movies away, singing karaoke, etc. How long will all these last? =( Everyone seem to be more decisive about what they want and not, and arranging them alone is already so difficult. But i guess this is the process of growing up isn't it? Topics change every year. I am afraid, of losing the common interest that we have simply because we are all growing up. Am I afraid of growing up? I guess YES.

Even for myself, how long more can I last being who I am, caring and loving people around me to an extent I myself am afraid of? i don't know. How long more before I start working, having my family, that I no longer have the same amount of time and energy for this wonderful family? I don't know, I really don't.

Now there are 27 of us. When we all settle down one by one, will this still be possible?

Time flies, life goes on. Yes, I know. And I am thankful for it. Memories last. Thank God for a wonderful Chinese New Year.

Thanks all, for the great time, company, support, advice, love, and simply, just being a part of my family.