God's Word

this whole studying period has sort of drawn me closer to God.
"My child, I want you to go all the way out to reach out to your friends. ALL THE WAY OUT. and know that I am going to give you the courage and strength to get the words out of your mouth."
Yes, Lord. If that is what You want me to do to make You happy, I'll do that. =P

an ordinary person working for an eXtraordinary God, to do eXtraordinary things in an eXtraordinary way!!

Block test.

so super sian-ded by all the studying! it's all about BIO, CHEM, ECONS and MATHS. at first it is, but after that it's not. it's more about glorifying God with everything that I do.

went back to Medan on fri. we had a short memorial service at home for ama's 1 year's bdae in heaven. isn't that wonderful? she didnt have to suffer everything in this earth, all the illness and pain, but she's in heaven, just worshipping God her whole life. she's walking on roads made of pure gold, not marble or what. and she's looking down on us, all praising God for bringing her up. the WL said a story which truly hit me: once, there was a family and the daughter of the family is getting married. at first they cried, thinking that they'll 'lose' their daughter. but looking at the couple so satisfied and happy, the tears of sorrow slowly became tears of joy. at first i thought that it was irrelevant to the occasion? after that he continued: similarly, when our beloved mom/ama went up to the heaven one year ago, it's inevitable that we'll shed tears of sorrow. even until now, when we think of her, we might still tear, but that'll be the tears that comes out as we remember the impact she made in our lives, the touch and difference that she created. =P

i just remembered years ago, she was still such a devoted Buddhist, praying in front of that altar in her house almost every single day, and she was just so so hard in the heart. but after talking to her, caring for her, praying for her, and everything, she became a believer. isn't that the most most amazing thing that can ever happen in life? her hardness in heart was just just so beyond words. but she even got baptised!! praise God. look at how true and perfect God's love is. she's really an example that inspired me, cos i've seriously never seen someone so devoted to her religion, that she really just dislikes Christianity, and yet God's love can touch her and she can be a believer. who can't then?

ok, enough of my short break!! shall get back to my bonding. i love to bond with God! not with molecules and ions!!

Me!

EXTRAORDINARY (Emerge 2005 theme song)

I'm walking on a new road
Livin' a brand new life
I've found myself a better way
Walkin' with Jesus every day

Lord you've taken me as I am
But I'm never gonna stay the same
In the power of your glory
I know I'll be forever and ever changed

(chorus)
Extraordinary, take my breath away
Extraordinary, make a brighter day
Extraordinary, way beyond the ordinary
Extraordinary

Nobody like you in all of the earth,
Nobody like you
Nobody like you in all the universe,
Nobody like you

woohoo~ this song is just so awesome! feeling quite high right now. because today i went for the volleyball thing and then went shoppin. well, havent studied for the day but i'm just so glad that i finally got my fathers' day and brendan's belated birthday present.

in the morning, went for cell(S?) outing. i think got like about 6-7 cells there. yea, cos we just multiply and pultiply. from 2 2 years ago to 6 now! woo~ praise God! It's really trough His grace that this is possible. reach sentosa's sunset bay at about 10, and then started playing at 11. it's like so cool, they got the loudspeaker and mic, everything there. so you can dedicate songs cos we got DJ, and they don't speak SINGLISH! haha. also got sell drinks, so everything is really made so easy for us. like lunch is bought, though we need to pay, of course. basically the girls in my group is just there to like erm.. pose? but we did TRY to get the ball k? though we didnt get. but we still had fun. haha. first match was basically one man's show- Boon kiat. i think if he didn't play for us, haha. none of us know how to start hitting the ball! haha. the second match was basically melanie and boy-boy playing. haha. but it's ok! we had fun looking. ;)

then after that went to taka to buy fathers' day present. been so so loong since i last went out- to shop!!! though not to buy anything for myself, it's really been a break! after today i must buck up le. jia you jia you jia you!! so sad this sat and sun cant go to cell and church. tomorrow going back indo. :( God, I really really want YOu!! come and take me away! (no, I don't wanna die) take my heart and soul away, back to YOu, that i can have the same heart and mind with You!! argh!!

back to mugging time~!! starting to lurve it~! haha. off i go to medan!!

My HappeNingZ--

hey peeps! such a looooong time since i last blogged. let me see, 1 week before? i guess i'm really just so into mugging. haha. can feel the urgency of Block test starting to crawl inside me. hehe. but GOd, I DON"T HAVE ENOUGH TIME TO STUDY!! Why must the feeling come only now? I've wasted so much time slacking, and now i'm starting to regret wasting just a few days of my holidays away. to think that this is a holiday...

well, emerge ended on last thurs, and i had a day to rest on friday. of course, i just studied! haha. and then on saturday i went for choir practice in the morning, followed by my dearest 4Legendary/Legacy class outing. choir prac wasn't really a prac, it's just the handover and everything. haha. totally freaked out/ screwed up my SL 'trial'. but it's ok, at least it's an experience. anyway i do love shao and linx more than i love myself. and i'll always give them my full support. hahaha. knowing how bad my music/rythm can be. haha.

the class outing went on quite well, just that i received a slab of cake and cream on my head though it's not my birthdya. life isn't always fair huh? haha. just kidding. just that choir ended a bit late so i only got to meet Amelia at 2 to get Ms ow's prezzie when the class meeting at 3 at harbourfront. haha. then at harbourfront mall, Grace, Amelia and me went to get cake, chips, etc. haha. and we know we're super late. to add on to our anxiety, the bus terminal in Sentosa was just so super packed with people that we got fed up and decided to walk to Siloso beach, which is at the extreme end. well, so of course, without complains, we walked there. ha. blow candles, cut cake, take photos, isn't that what we'll do? but i miss them so so much that i really cant say anything. when i see them, i just feel like hugging them, one by one. that's so sad! yep, got cake on my head and when i came back, ARGH!! they're gonna leave. not everyone, but Janice, victoria, zhenli and MS OW!! i havent even talked to them. ;( after they went, we played dodgeball. haha. WE! and basically i just got hit before i even touched the ball. or basically, my team always lose. hahaha. what matters is the fun. it's very fun la. haha. just cant stop laughing when i think of it? after that we just sat there and talked. a thing that i'll treasure most. time sure flies when you're enjoying yourself? i do agree fully!!

next day was service. ming tse went with me, and to my surprise, maybe hers too, that she actually talks to people there! i thought that she talks even more than she does normally in school! hahah. hey girl, if you ever happen to read this, just wanna say that i love you, our big Daddy up there loves you even more and He wants a relationship with you. ;) glad that you're so open about it. take care k? keep shinin'!
after that i went for photohunt at west coast park. ok, it's very fun, i did enjoy myself but it was so tiring! haha. or maybe cos i ran. the next day i woke up with muscleaches all over? it's ok, i did enjoy it. hehe.

monday and tuesday was just studying, studying and studying. today's qi's bdae, went to celebrate but had to leave early. and then tomorrow i'm going to sentosa for volleyball match, then afternoon to buy fathers' day present. oh, I WANT TIME!! after emerge, i really got so inspired to study for God that i just wanna studya nd study!! arh! and also my piano exam like coming and i'm still playing. GOD,can You help me get serious about it? have control over my fingers and my mind, that I can have the discipline to play. help! TIME! to study, to fellowship and commune with Him, to talk to new friends!! GOd, since everyone has only 24 hours, i just pray You'll maximise my capacity to do mroe things and help improve my concentration! Thanks. ;) Love You!

EmerGez!! #3!!

Once I have turned my face from Thee
Yet You sought me
You cleansed me,
made me whole again
Jesus, my saviour,
my beloved and friend
Your praises I bring,
from my heart I sing

O draw me, o draw me away
Messiah today
to Your presence to stay.
Lord Jesus now change me,
and mould me
that I can be,
evermore true to Thee

YOU ARE THE SHEPHERD OF MY HEART
YOU HAVE BROUGHT ME TO YOUR CHAMBER
MY MASTER AND KING
YOU LIGHT UP MY DARKNESS
AND GAVE ME YOUR WORD
THAT YOU'LL NEVER FORSAKE ME
NOR NO EVER WILL LEAVE ME


another beautiful song? written by pastor kong. this song is just so anointed. it really pulls down the presence. Lord, this is really the cry of my heart, that even if everyone around me has backslid, I will never backslide oh Lord.

Today's service felt so short. in fact, it's the longest service but i FELT short. we started at 6.45 and ended at 11.30! we just worshipped and worshipped Him and just enjoy being in His presence, that by 9.30 sermon hasn't even start. But it felt good. even when he preached, tears just flow. can you imagine, crying for about 5 hours? no wonder my eyes are so sore and red. haha. but it still felt good, makes you want more, more and more.

the sermon was about the Holy Spirit, how He's a person, He carries a presence and power. His power is called the anointing, which can be likened to oil. Just like oil, which lubricates, burns to light up, moisturizes, the power does that. However, the oil in the oil tank can become stale, spoilt, contaminated. so we have to make an oil check regularly, to check if the anointing is still full to its brim. What we need to do so that the Holy Spirit can come: we need to get spritually hungry and thirsty. the Holy Spirit does not quench our thirst, but He makes you long for more and more. so let's have an encounter with God every single day!! We must start opening up to GOd- make room for Him in everything that we do, don't set pre-conditions. We also should surrender our life 100%. remove the axle 'I' and change it to 'God', so that it's He who lives in us. it's He who speaks, thinks, do, act, walk, talk. The service was just just so heart warming.we sang our famous love song, 'we're family that loves, loves, loves, loves one another. we're family that care, cares, cares, for sisters and brothers. through sunshine or rain, we will wtill be the same. we're a family that loves, loves, loves, loves one another.' and the last song to wrap everything up goes 'keep shining, keep smiling, knowing you can always count on me, for sure. that's what friends are for...' and it just lingers in the heart, with the presence. hoo~ how i long for more of You. it's really a place where the unwanted feels Your love.

it was really a day for me. like i got phone calls to tell me to go down to school for interview for choir ex co. i didnt run, guess someone nominated me. and i didnt receive any prior notice. i guessed they forgot or just that the sms doesnt reach australia. haha. but it's ok. don't worry guys! I was so in a mess- I didn't know what to run for, whether it's God's will for me to run- I just know that i want to run for it. I want to, but I can't, i Guess. So i rejected it. I can't because I'm holding on to church and studies right now. I'm not sure if I can cope with my studies, church and choir. and it'll be so irresponsible if I run for a post, take it up and don't do my best for it when I can't cope. the worst thing is that if I can't cope, I'll be forced to let go of church, I guess. Cos studies is of course a must, choir is sth that once i take up, I can't just throw it away. But for church, it is the only option that concerns my decision. and it's so not going to be worth it to let go of God. not only the time, but energy? motivation, strength? to reach out so that i can do greater and greater things for Him. Seriously, I rather serve God. well, I hope I won't regret the decision I made.

I was so inspired by all the testimonies, and stories, that I pledged that I'll never live a day without being in His presence. That's the only way that I don't dry up, so that the fire keeps on burning. The conference is over, but it's the beginning of the great works that we're gonna do, revival in schools, fulfilment of dreams and visions. Don't die for Him, but lives for Him, for it's even more difficult to live than to die for Him. gambatte!! shine for the Lord!
Lord, I give You all of me, in exchange for all of You. come Lord, and touch me!! ^.^

EmerGez!! #2!!

Bila kubuka mataku If I open my eyes
dan lihat wajahMu And look at Your face
Kuterkagum I'm amazed

Bila kulihat hidupku If I look at my life
dan karya tangan-Mu and all that you've done
kutersanjung I'm in awe
kar'na semua yang baik For everything that is good
didalam hidupku In my life
itulah karyaMu is what Your hands have done
Kau b'ri k'sempatan yang baru You gave me a new chance

DAn kuingin mengenalMu Tuhan And I want to know you Lord
Lebih dalam dari s'mua yand kukenal Deeper than anything else that I know
Tiada kasih yang melebihi-Mu There's no love more than Yours
Ku ada untuk menjadi menyembahMu I exist to be Your worshipper

Beautiful song, isn't it? It just keep on ringing in my head. and also, "So I look to You, So I look to YOu. No one else will do, no one else will do (x2)"
Lord oh Lord, how can i ever express how much You mean to me? without You, I'll never be able to come that far. Lord oh Lord, how much I long for more of You, more of Your touch. So Lord, right now come oh Lord, and give me new visions and dreams, to do things for your Kingdom. Oh Lord, I love You. You're prince of peace, amazing, wonderful, merciful, holy, anointed, everlasting, patient, faithful, etc. Lord, how can I ever repay You with my life? You've done so much for me, that nothing I do can ever repay it, Lord. I'm coming back to the heart of worship.

Today has been another wonderful day. the conference rawks! more because of the presence of God so strongly felt there. We spent more than one hour each service justpaise and worshipping the Lord and at every service, the people will just kneel down, come before the Lord and cry out to Him and I believe that lives are changed, hearts are renewed, fire is rekindled and everything that there is, it helps you move on to the next level.

The morning session was about making room for God, how in a room there must be a bed, table, chair and lampstand. He moves only when he finds room in the place. Bed means a bed of faith, that without faith it is impossible to please God. Faith is a decision and it will not limit God. Similarly, God will not limit faith. Faith is the element that will attract Him. Table means a place of fellowship. That we must spend time fellowshipping, communing with Him. and not rush through the time but just let it flow. The Holy Spirit wants to come and give us a greater adventure, if only we can make room for Him. Chair- throne. God is enthroned! so we must come back to the heart worship, to have a heart of worship. Our mind might move quickly, but we have to pull it down to pulsate with oour heart and our heart click with GOd's heart and boom-we'll go to the next level, there'll be breakthroughs. lampstand means light. Our key to sustain revival is the Bible. It is a book which is lives on the Earth. No one can take out anything or add anything to the things inside. It is the sword that helps us overcome giants. At the service, I was so challenged to start to make room for God in my studies, quiet time, and everything that I do, so that everywhere I go, the power and presence will be with me. Till now, it is still the cry of my heart.

The night was another phenomenal one. It was a short sermon, about the tribes that judge Deborah sent invitation to, to kill the enemy. I'll always be Zebulun and Naphtali, who are willing to put down what they're doing to come, lay down everything before GOd, and finally they won!! Lord, it'll be so so sad if one day when we die, we're separated. really don't want that to happen. I think that the accummulative presence these 2 days have really impacted me and changed my life. I pledge that I'll become more on fire and never to dry up again. Lord, I simply want to wait and wait on You.

EXTRAordinary, way beyong the ordinary, EXTRAordinary. My God is...

EmerGez!! #1!!

spent 14 hours in church todae!! but it was all all worth it. hoo~ i'm just so fired up now. haha. today marks the beginning of the three-days life changing experience, and it's already so so good. wonder how it will be in the next two days! the first session was on why reaching out to youths is so important. can you imagine: 1 in 4 people in Taiwan and China, 1 in 3 people in Malaysia and Indonesia, 1 in 2 people in India are teenagers! And if we go and change the youth of today, we're not just going to influence the society but also the future! they're gonna be future leaders right. and the place where they are concentrated is like in schools campuses. 99% of the leaders of the world today are educated, and their values they implace are actually gave onto them, stuck to them in their youth? so our youth is super super important and I'm so not going to waste it away. Yes, Lord, I'm gonna commit all that I am to You and just lay down my life for You, to go all out to click with Your dreams and visions. I love You- more than anything in life. I'm so gonna do things for Your Kingdom! Yea, You never let me go and I just pray that no matter what happens, I'll cling on to You and never grow dry.

After that was talentime! they had the decibels reading to measure the audience's response to the performances to determine the best performance award!! It's like so cool. but yea, this year not a lot of people from cell got in. ;( It's ok! The people up there are also my dear bro and sis in Christ and the best thing is that they're are performing for the glory of the Lord! yea~ Jia you guys!

Went to queue for the 7.30pm session at the staircase. haha. it sure does kill you. If you all know me well enough, you know that I don't really sweat even after I finish my 2.4km run? but just now, my sweat just trickles down and I'm like super sticky and wet. I shine! haha. it's really like being in the steam room. can you imagine? A long staircase from B4 to lvl 1, without any door or window? but with spotlight? and with hundreds of people packing in there? ha. when we were going down, the floor is wet! with all the sweat. the wall, even ceiling got water dew. hahaha. must be mad right. but it's all worth it when you get into the hall.

The 7.30pm session was more than marvellous, wonderful, whatever you can describe it. The presence was so there even during worship and I do agree with Pastor that we should not rush everything but spend more time worshipping cos it's the time where the presence comes and touch, transform, convict hearts. so just now, during worship, everyone just knelt down, including Pastor Kong and Sun, BVs, etc. everyone was weeping! you can just feel the touch, flowing from every corner- even the people in the overflow rooms are weeping. God, we love You. We want more of You. the message was short-30min- but impactful. It's about spiritual hunger and thirst. It makes me realise how much I've missed these months and how dry I have become. and of course, I wept like mad. didnt even bother taking out tissue. Now I just want to be more and more hungry and thirsty after the Lord, His Kingdom, His Word, His presence, His heart, His will, visions and dreams. I'll be more and more hungry each day!! Love you so much.

as you can see, the day has been full of hmm.. memories? going mad, shouting, screaming, jumping, dancing during praise, weeping, crying out, kneeling during worship, talentime, queueing, etc. haha. well, I'm sure the next two days will be an even more bombastic meetings. Anw, you guys out there, CHC is the soolest place in town!! we dye our hair, do hair extension, do everything we can, to be IN, to shine and get into the world out there. We are ordinary bunch of people doing eXtraOrdinary things for God and with GOd. We are cool, minus the drug, sexual immorality, and plus the power, anointing, blessings, grace and finally, and open heaven. GOd I LOVE YOU!! :) so lookin forward to later!

AuStRaLiAn ExPeRiEnCe

Just came back from Queensland-Australia, so here i am to pin down my thoughts!! overall, the trip was super fun, tiring but the time was A Time To Cherish, definitely. Firstly, maybe that's because I was quite exhausted and sick of school routines and the things I do. Secondly, I guess through this week my family really got closer by a lot. Josephine is still that book-worm, but we've talked really a lot and I realised that she's no longer the small sister I used to have. she's Primary 2! And apparrently she acts, talks, eats, more like Dad, Mum, Jac and me-as compared to Jess and Joanne. And she's been a big sister to the 2 smaller ones, just that she can be a bit unreasonable and stubborn. Jess talks less nonsense and after this week, it's been a sure change of her attitude. As in, she talks more and everything- sometimes she makes us laugh at her innocence. We've also payed lots of attention to the way Joanne talks, since she's the youngest and she's very pampered, but she's indeed very very smart.

Day1 (Sun-29/5/05)
Off we went to Brisbane. Still suffered from post-concert excitement, thus my eyes was red on my way there. like who sleeps on the plane? upon reaching Brisbane, the first breathe was overwhelming. Finally, finally- I've come out from the humid, sticky and torturous weather in Singapore. so off I went to Gold Coast, which is about 1 hour drive from Brisbane. The hotel reminds me of Mohegan Sun- where it was very very colourful and undoubtedly fun. after we checked in, we just went to ZEN- the chinese restaurant to have our dinner and turned in since everyone is excited about the next day.

Day 2 (Mon-30/5/05)
We walked down to the nearest McD to have our breakfast while Mom and Dad went to fetch the car we rented. Theme parks open at 10am, and we were actually ready by 10.30 but the car took so long to come. everyone was so fed up. after hours of waiting, it finally came asat 12.15.. grr.. super angry. that day we went to the currumbin wildlife sanctuary and looked at the wildlife in Australia- Koalas, Kangaroos, Wombat, Tasmanian Devils, Dinghos, Echidnas, etc. the funniest thing is that the maid and Joanne went to feed one of the birds and after that all the birds, ducks, geese, etc started coming towards them, one by one. haha. i should have captured their scared faces man. super funny. haha. we went to feed the kangaroos, and Phine, Joanne and Dad took a picture holding a baby crocodile. haha. Joanne was so scared! her face was green.



Day 3 (Tue- 31/5/05)
Farmstay~! the journey took 2 hours+ and when we reached there, we literally did nothing for the day. except for feeding the horses with one whole bag of carrots, went to do some shopping for groceries, helped out in cooking dinner, do maths tys (a teeny weeny bit) and sleep!



Day 4(Wed-1/6/05)
Woke up early for the acticities planned by the farmers. first, we went to press for cow's milk. it felt a bit disgusting, but yeah, experience. after that we went to feed the calves with super big milk bottles. they're just so adorable. the next one is the duck, sheep, chicken. we went to collect chicken eggs, a ride on the four wheeler motorbike on the farm, horse ride. there are just so many things to do and write, that I cant really say how i feel, but definitely things that are pleasant. ;) we then went to the custard apple plantation.



Day 5 ( Thurs-2/6/05)
We're on our way back to Gold Coast! the farmstay was indeed a remarkable one- with the environment, peace, just simple everything! we went to the woolshed on the way and looked at how they shed the wool of the sheep. really pity the sheep, geeting shaved in winter. after it's being shaved, it was imbalance and hence could hardly walk. i went to shave it too, and the person gave me a bunch of wool for souvenir. like it a lot but it's so smelly. hehe. but i brought it back anyway. went to Dreamworld. took a picture with spongebob and patrick! haha. went to ride wipeout. it makes me so giddy. it just turns and turns but it turns slowly so you can feel you head low and legs high up. also went to ride roller coaster and the flume ride. haha. Joanne was so happy she keeps on laughing. so many more rides, but i guess it's just normal theme parks. had a super long and exhausting day. happy birthday Pastor SUn!!



Day 6 (Fri-3/6/05)
Happy Brithday ah so!! ;)
we went ot movie world today and the Spooky scooby-doo ride is the first one we took. it was a deceiving roller coaster. maybe because it's scooby-doo, everyone thought it wasnt scary. haha. but it was. but still fun. guess Jess scared her guts out and so she refused to take any other rides except for those kiddy ones. hhaa. the ride stopped halfway and Jac and I were wondering is it because of Mom? haha. but turned out to be not, an elderly had fainted! but otherwise, it was just another theme park. sounds like i'm bored? nah, nothing of that sort but i was sick of theme parks. haha.

Day 7 (Sat-4/6/05)
Our last day there. so sad. today we didnt go to sea world. all because of me. it's just that i don't think our last day there should be in another theme park. so that day, we went to eat lobster, then went ot the beach and played the waves. it was so much fun. haha. expecially with the three younger sister. they were enjoying themselves so much. haha. the beach was so beautiful- the water is clean and clear, the sand is white and clean, and when the sun shines down, it just glimmers. when you reach there you'll really feel how great God is, to create such a beautiful earth. can you imagine heaven? it is indeed GOLD coast. =P at night, finally i got the chance to shop. but we didnt go to oulets so the stuff is still very ex. like a shirt costs AUD$40, which is S$56, given the exchange rate of 1.4.. hhaa. so ended up buying nothing.




Day 8 (Sun-5/6/05)
came back to Singapore and still struggling to survive given the weather. hahaha.

this trip was indeed, undoubtedly enjoyable. time to come back to reality!! study for block test!! jia you!!
WOHOO~~ tomorrow is the long waited emerge conference!! i wanna be extraordinary and emerge!! yay!! looking forward to it so so much. ;) hehe. but i must construct my timet able for studying again. way too far from it le. ;)