EmerGez!! #3!!

Once I have turned my face from Thee
Yet You sought me
You cleansed me,
made me whole again
Jesus, my saviour,
my beloved and friend
Your praises I bring,
from my heart I sing

O draw me, o draw me away
Messiah today
to Your presence to stay.
Lord Jesus now change me,
and mould me
that I can be,
evermore true to Thee

YOU ARE THE SHEPHERD OF MY HEART
YOU HAVE BROUGHT ME TO YOUR CHAMBER
MY MASTER AND KING
YOU LIGHT UP MY DARKNESS
AND GAVE ME YOUR WORD
THAT YOU'LL NEVER FORSAKE ME
NOR NO EVER WILL LEAVE ME


another beautiful song? written by pastor kong. this song is just so anointed. it really pulls down the presence. Lord, this is really the cry of my heart, that even if everyone around me has backslid, I will never backslide oh Lord.

Today's service felt so short. in fact, it's the longest service but i FELT short. we started at 6.45 and ended at 11.30! we just worshipped and worshipped Him and just enjoy being in His presence, that by 9.30 sermon hasn't even start. But it felt good. even when he preached, tears just flow. can you imagine, crying for about 5 hours? no wonder my eyes are so sore and red. haha. but it still felt good, makes you want more, more and more.

the sermon was about the Holy Spirit, how He's a person, He carries a presence and power. His power is called the anointing, which can be likened to oil. Just like oil, which lubricates, burns to light up, moisturizes, the power does that. However, the oil in the oil tank can become stale, spoilt, contaminated. so we have to make an oil check regularly, to check if the anointing is still full to its brim. What we need to do so that the Holy Spirit can come: we need to get spritually hungry and thirsty. the Holy Spirit does not quench our thirst, but He makes you long for more and more. so let's have an encounter with God every single day!! We must start opening up to GOd- make room for Him in everything that we do, don't set pre-conditions. We also should surrender our life 100%. remove the axle 'I' and change it to 'God', so that it's He who lives in us. it's He who speaks, thinks, do, act, walk, talk. The service was just just so heart warming.we sang our famous love song, 'we're family that loves, loves, loves, loves one another. we're family that care, cares, cares, for sisters and brothers. through sunshine or rain, we will wtill be the same. we're a family that loves, loves, loves, loves one another.' and the last song to wrap everything up goes 'keep shining, keep smiling, knowing you can always count on me, for sure. that's what friends are for...' and it just lingers in the heart, with the presence. hoo~ how i long for more of You. it's really a place where the unwanted feels Your love.

it was really a day for me. like i got phone calls to tell me to go down to school for interview for choir ex co. i didnt run, guess someone nominated me. and i didnt receive any prior notice. i guessed they forgot or just that the sms doesnt reach australia. haha. but it's ok. don't worry guys! I was so in a mess- I didn't know what to run for, whether it's God's will for me to run- I just know that i want to run for it. I want to, but I can't, i Guess. So i rejected it. I can't because I'm holding on to church and studies right now. I'm not sure if I can cope with my studies, church and choir. and it'll be so irresponsible if I run for a post, take it up and don't do my best for it when I can't cope. the worst thing is that if I can't cope, I'll be forced to let go of church, I guess. Cos studies is of course a must, choir is sth that once i take up, I can't just throw it away. But for church, it is the only option that concerns my decision. and it's so not going to be worth it to let go of God. not only the time, but energy? motivation, strength? to reach out so that i can do greater and greater things for Him. Seriously, I rather serve God. well, I hope I won't regret the decision I made.

I was so inspired by all the testimonies, and stories, that I pledged that I'll never live a day without being in His presence. That's the only way that I don't dry up, so that the fire keeps on burning. The conference is over, but it's the beginning of the great works that we're gonna do, revival in schools, fulfilment of dreams and visions. Don't die for Him, but lives for Him, for it's even more difficult to live than to die for Him. gambatte!! shine for the Lord!
Lord, I give You all of me, in exchange for all of You. come Lord, and touch me!! ^.^