Block test...

been so super long since i last blogged huh? hehe. gues i've been too busy about the block test. it's finally over! woo~! seriously, i felt that i've not done my best, as in i didn't do the paper properly, and i didn't study enough either. the whole block test was quite horrible, in the sense that I didn't complete one paper of each subject. and I just felt so terrible after the paper that one day I just broke down and cried. the first subject-GP wasn't very well done, I felt that AQ was lousy, chem was blegh. everything was just not good. my maths, which is the only hope I had, wasnt good either. as in my calculator batt went flat and i can literally hear the devil laughing at me, once again. scary right? i was sort of having a spiritual warfare during the paper, and I was like God, how come the batt went flat at this paper, what am I supposed to do? so i was praying till i felt His peace. then i went to press the calculator and it came back! praise God! but still, felt that i won't do well. so can you imagine how upset I was by the end of the week, well, more of depressed. and i just can't have that faith in Him, though i want to, but there's just this thought- you're going to fail. so sad right?

On friday, joined mummy's adult cell and pastor was sharing about living your life for Christ, how we get our prayers answered by praying for something in His name, that can glorify Him. i was so encouraged by the message i forced myself to have faith in Him, no matter what. i don't deny that i still have doubts but everytime i thought about the paper, i'll pray and proclaim that i'm putting it into His hands. so that weekend was quite ok for me, as in i felt the peace of God, and i believe that He'll open a door for me to glorify Him somehow. =P so yea.. hehe. was so happy that I turn back to hold on to Him.

the next thurs, I got my papers back. woo~ I did quite ok. haha. like my math, miraculously, got 75- just an A. not a mark less nor more. isn't God good? He just helps you in time. God will make a way, when there seems to be no way. and my chem got 71, which is a B- but i thought it was way more than what I expected already. also, got back P1 and P2 of my econs. got 40/50! waiting for the other 25 marks essay. isn't Gos just wonderful? I believe 100% that without Him, everything has been so impossible. everything will just fall apart. and seriously, He is the God who cares for all things, not only spiritual things, but more of character. and I just simply love His greatness.